: Every Timeline Every Possibility :

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[ Forehead to forehead, and an explosion of light that fell around them in a symphony of time and space while the words reverberated within his mind, 'you are perfect the way that you are'. Their souls fused, in every timeline and every possibility there could only be them. Divine clarity, that was what it certainly was. Viktor was full of it, of the breath of Jayce's breath against his own and the certainty that they would find each other.

But gods, they could not be allowed to repeat their mistakes.

So many mistakes that could've been avoided if they had only known.

Wherever they went, whatever possibility they faced-- Viktor prayed that he would know, that he would be able to guide them away from the hubris of their own machinations, and the machinations of others. Especially for the man who braved hell so that he could be here at the end with him-- Jayce full of idealism and hope, who despite choices made could push all of it aside for the two of them, to give grace to the same man who could not understand that his own choices had been just as full of error.

Perhaps they could meet in the middle?

Underwater, Viktor had been underwater. He woke up in a start with the sun just peeking just above the horizon, trailing through his window with the first glimmers of morning. A deep breath like he had never breathed before in his entire life while air filled his gasping and aching lungs-- and that ache spread throughout his entire body.

Somewhere out there, Jayce was out there.

Waiting for him. "Every timeline, every possibility" he breathed as if it was a mantra.

There were memories of a life before this moment of wake-up, but it was coupled with the sudden infusion of life before, another era and another universe. Viktor had been given a second chance, and he would not squander it-- that is if he could find Jayce. Gods, Piltover was so big, and he was but one man; countless lives on the freeway of these souls, but he needed to find the exact one. Gods, what a challenge and with the limitations of his own body which he felt keenly.

But not weakness, never weakness as he forced himself out of bed and his body to cooperate with his own fragility. His cane was reached for and then he set about to go about his daily routine which came just as effortlessly as the time before all of this. ]

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[ As they started walking, Viktor found out that Jayce generated so much heat-- entrancing heat that drew him like a cat was prone to pick the warmest spot in the house to lounge. And the way that Jayce drew his warm palm away had been so close to making a sigh of displeasure escape is mouth.

The Hextech scientist managed to keep it at bay. Jayce was a furnace, and Viktor felt as if cold was a constant state for himself, and now that he indulged once-- he knew he would be in trouble further down the line. ] You mentioned something about Regenerative Energy? Tell me about your Hypothesi.

[ That would fill in the space and he did like hearing Jayce speak, liked seeing the other man get caught up in his passions. ]

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[He was a human space heater, it was true, and all that warmth was available to Viktor if he gave any inclination at all that he wanted it. Really it was taking all Jayce's willpower not to just wrap Viktor into his arms and hug him as tightly as he could and tell him how terribly he's missed him and how this time will be differnet.

But he'd reminded himself that this Viktor was still a stranger. This Viktor had only met him this morning, and it would take time to build a friendship, but they had that chance. And Jayce would do as much as he needed to keep Viktor in his life.]

Straight into it, huh? I kind of thought you might be the sort...

[A gentle, playful tone in his voice.] My hypothesis is predicated on the fact that the forces of the arcane are no different than the other physical forces in the universe, save that science hasn't learned how to harness it yet.

[Oh god he could hear himself saying the words and cringed inwardly at the realization of how they were being set to play out this drama on the stage of another world. It would be different this time. It had to be. How many times could Orpheus look back at the last moment and lose it all?]

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[ Both of them dancing around each other, knowing and yet not knowing the other knew. It could only be so laughable until it turned pathetic. ] Ah, then I am that predictable. How disappointing, I should probably do something to throw you for a loop then.

[ Not knowing that the hand on the forearm had already done that. ]

The thing that I like about both Science and Arcane are that they are largely separate fields, and yet there is a bridge to be built between then though one must be cautious to build that bridge carefully, with a proper foundation.

[ It felt like an allusion to their relationship, and the fact that bridges could be built but also destroyed. ] I have toyed with the thought of attempting to use the Arcane to help those such as myself..

[ Oh yes, this was the path that Viktor had been on about in the previous universe-- however then he took a sharp curve. ]

Though I would like to apply those principles to creation more so than regenerative; creating something as opposed to fusing it to organic matter, though that is an interesting concept.

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Don't be so sure you haven't already.

[Jayce informed him because yeah, he'd been thrown, was still reeling, would be reeling for the rest of the night. And he liked it, the dizzying rush of being in Viktor's presence.]

Yes, that's it exactly. A bridge. But all my attempts so far have crumbled before they've fully bridged the gap. I've come close, but I haven't found the right foundation yet, nothing stable enough to hold.

[A tilt of his head as Viktor also treaded that familiar path, of helping people, not just himself. There was a flicker of surprise in his features at that new twist. Oh.]

So then... making rather than remaking?

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I believe...

[ He wished he could open the notebook as he walked, he would not be able to as he was not nearly that coordinated; but he did expound upon this particular venue of conversation. ] That if things can be made, then they can be reconstructed and likely far easier because we are already aware of foundational principles from the creation process.

[ He lets go of Jayce's forearm but only so that he can brush his fingers through a few locks of his hair. ] It is merely a different jumping point, it is rather hard to guestimate molecular properties without understanding their core properties, but starting from the ground up you already have the blocks.

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[It would not be the first time that Jayce found himself falling into listening to Viktor in something between awe at the other man's quick mind and eager excitement to build onto what he was saying. It was an old dance that they both knew well.

A nod.]

If we can't build it to start with, then we can deconstruct it, take it down to its most fundamental piece, a building block...

[A different approach, a new angle to the way they could harness this technology. Maybe there could be some good of this.]

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Exactly!

[ Viktor was no stranger to the feeling of ideas surging through one, and he certainly did dare a peek upward at Jayce as they walked. He also did have another universe of ideas working through him that could be reworked and enhanced as needed. ]

Reverse engineering, I do not know why we...

[ he stopped himself at that point, not completing that sentance that clearly ended with '..didn't do that in the first place' which would have given so much away, perhaps wierded the other man out? Viktor did not want to become unsettled ]

What matters is that we understand the basics of organic and inorganic material but to truly stablize a concept we have to know how it breaks down into its lowest common denominator-- there is nothing we can do unless we have a firm grasp on the engineering part-- how the gears and axles spin and turn to create harmony.

[ To Viktor, this was poetry. ]

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[His heart was racing just like it had been a lifetime ago, pieces falling into place, and Jayce wanted to sweep Viktor up into a hug at the simple brilliance of it. How had they missed this? He was swept up enough that he did not notice that almost mis-speaking.]

No, you're right. Trying to go about it from the mid-point leaves too many unknowns, chances for flaws we don't in the system to slip in and fester...

[For corruption to spread and become something bigger than either of them could ever have guessed.]

It's a slower approach, smaller steps. But more certain ones. ...safer ones.

[A shake of his head.] Heimerdinger really was right all along.

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[ A glance up at Jayce as he caught that word, his eyes sharpening a little as something begin to grow. He had not caught the knowledge that Jayce knew his favorite snacks because that was quite simply not something that he prioritized (even though he knew those things about Jayce, you could not just sit in a lab with someone day by day and NOT notice) , but the mention of Heimerdinger and something that had been said while the two men were deep in their hubris certainly held pause; it was only after their initial collaboration that it had been said.

Did Jayce..?

He decided to prod if he could find our answers. ] Who is ... Heimerdinger?

[ He had stopped mid walk, they had cleared the university gardens and were far closer to Jayce's lab, but he had to know-- perhaps a hint of possibility. And he knew for a fact that Jayce was NOT good at lying or hiding anything. ]

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[Jayce was in full science nerd mode, brain racing to reshape the approach this new version of himself had been taking, reshape the approach that he and Viktor had taken before, framing it in this new perspective that Viktor had suggested. It was thrilling and fascinating so much so that he hadn't even noticed his slipup of speaking of things that weren't part of this reality, yet anyway.

But Viktor had stopped walking and asked a question.

It should be a harmless question. After all, one name couldn't really mean something to someone who didn't know the name. It should be an innocent question, one that Jayce could answer simply enough. But something about the look on Viktor's face, the focus and sharpness in that gaze.

Jayce turned to face him, a tightness in his chest dangerously like hope that wanted to rise. And god he was the worst at lying anyway, so instead he offered, that shade of hope at the very edges of his voice, tentative and terrified,]

He was a mentor of mine. A lifetime ago.

[Please. Please whatever forces drove the cosmos, please give him this. He didn't deserve it, of course he didn't, but what he wouldn't give for this one little miracle.]

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[ It should have been an innocent question but it wasn't not really, it was a loaded question and too many threads wrapped around it-- he looked to Jayce and caught that wide eyed puppy gaze, this man who had always worn his heart on his sleeve, in his eyes.

Where Viktor's heart lay in the subtlities, the upward or downward centimeter tilt of a mouth or the fraction of an eyebrow raise when emotions were involved-- Jayce's had always been so heartbreakingly expansive and he renembered being brought back to life by Jayce and the Hexcore, and those tear-filled eyes.

He stepped a little bit closer, using his cane as leverage. ]

A... timeline ago?

[ Jayce would recognize it, if he knew-- and Viktor kept his gaze trained solely on those eyes. ]

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[Subtle, yes, so subtle, but once you knew Viktor they were unmistakable, those small changes in his sharp features. And Jayce could see them now, the unspoken volumes behind that single word, a test flare shot up in hopes that it might be seen by someone who would understand it.

Jayce's eyes widened further, the faintest start of a mist clouding his vision. He answered that question in action rather than words, stepping closer and pulling Viktor into his arms, near engulfing the other man as if he could wrap the entirety of himself around him.]

It's you.

[His Viktor.]

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[ Perhaps Viktor should have expected this, he was not unused to the affection that Jayce displayed-- but still he was taken aback as he was drawn into those arms, able to look past that shoulder into a world that now existed as their new stage. Then his eyes softened and he rested his cheek against a shoulder.

His cane has already clattered to the ground, that too was fine. ]

It is me, Jayce-- it is me.

[ It felt like coming home, just as their last few moments had been where they had opted to end it for the good of humanity; he'd been afraid and yet Jayce had told him that he would not be alone, would never be alone. That they would be together in this.

Viktor was normally not emotional, however he could not help but a few feverish tears as he rested his not so gaunt (not yet) cheek against the other scientist's shoulder. He had remembered, remembered him and everything that they had done. He had known and that was why he'd been so aggressive in his friendship, because he recognized him. ]

I was searching for you.

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[Jayce's arms tightened around him at those words. Simple beautiful words. His Viktor. The man he'd known and worked with and again and loved and loved and lost and found again at the very end when it mattered the most. A sound that couldn't decide if it wanted to be a laugh or a sob slipped free.]

I was looking for you too and I had no idea how to find you, and then I tripped over you. I didn't think you remembered me but I couldn't just let you go and... I am rambling.

[Rambling and not letting Viktor out of his arms for the moment. They were in the middle of the walkway but at least they were away from the crowds of the university and honestly Jayce didn't care anyway. The world could go around them.]

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You can ramble all you want, Jayce Talis--

[ He was not sure if they were free of Zaun and Piltover, all those machinations that had drawn them, but they had each other and that was all that mattered. He was not romantic and fate held only as much appeal as the man who had his arms wrapped around him.

Those golden eyes searched for Jayce's then and he offered the hint of a smile. ] Let me retrieve my cane and then we can continue on to your lab, I am not sure how much catching up we have-- as predictably before I came to in this body, my memories, I was focused on my research which... follows the same path as--

[ Hubris... ]

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[The things Jayce would not do for that smile. And it had been so long since he'd seen it, too long since Viktor was flesh and blood and whole and looking at him like the world still held so much possibility for the both of them. He very reluctantly let the other man go, a bit sheepish at the fact that he'd been clinging to him quite so tightly.

Jayce crouched to scoop up the dropped cane, still on one knee as he handed it up to Viktor.]

Yeah, me too. On the road to Hextech and the Hexgate all over again. But this time... we have the benefit of hindsight. Both of us. And I... I'm so glad it's you, Viktor.

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Good.

[ Viktor accepted the cane from Jayce, and for a moment their eyes catch and he sees everything in full retrospect, the eyes and the forehead touch-- the promise that he would follow him into the dark; that they end this together. He finds himself reaching to lay his hand on a shoulder. ] And I am glad it is you too, we have much to discuss I think.

[ He was in his own mind, and Jayce was with his whole facilities as well. There was no stolen cores or stones, no council.. at least not on his part. Perhaps they could steer each other in the correct direction. ]

It's always been you, for me.

[ Forever, and in every lifetime. And he did not know what that meant except that whatever he had in his heart had been built up since their first meeting. ]

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[Jayce wished for one reckless, breathless moment that he'd kissed Viktor in what he thought was their final seconds alive. But that was out of line, wasn't it? Whatever they were -- and oh they were something, were something intrinsically, irrevocably linked, souls woven through each other in a way that would never be undone -- they weren't lovers.

Even if those words on Victor's lips had him aching. It's always been you, for me. Certainly it didn't mean what Jayce wished it would mean. And that was fine. They had each other in this way, whatever it was, and Jayce would be content with having Viktor in his life as his dearest friend, his partner in so much.

He set a hand atop the one at his shoulder as he straightened up.]

For me, too. And it always will be. In all timelines, in all possibilities.

[Viktor's words from that timeless space, echoed back now because they were true and would always be true for Jayce as well.]

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[ Jayce really was thick, wasn't he? This was what came to Viktor's mind and allowed even more of a smile to crest over his lips, somehow deeper than what he usually did-- showing how much skin he really did not have to spare. Then he rested his hand lightly on that shoulder and looked up into those eyes that had gone the gamut from mist, to joy, to soft resignation and finally to hope and contentment.

His hand slipped out from under Jayce's in what one would think was a retreat and then very lightly cupped that jawline, strong and chiseled. ]

We have the ability to rewrite our story into whatever we wish-- we have knowledge of what went wrong and we can make it right, together.

[ He had not forgotten, he wrapped his hand at the back of neck and pulled down until their foreheads touched in such a simulacrum of their last moments before they exploded into a symphony of hex and successfully removed it from the playing board.

The most intimate gesture, far more intimate than even a kiss. This had been sufficient in the final moments to convey the depths of Jayce's feelings for him, and it carried with him. ]

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[Jayce expected retreat. He even told himself he was okay with it, but the sudden rush of wonder and hope that flooded through him until it shone through his eyes belied that thought. He turned ever so slightly into that touch, though his gaze did not for one instant leave Viktor's face.]

Together.

[Jayce agreed softly, voice a whisper roughened through by too many emotions to properly name them all.]

I'm not letting you go this time. Everything went wrong the moment I let you walk away.

[He finally shut his eyes as their foreheads came to rest together. Close and intimate indeed, the rest of the world, of all worlds, falling away. And when stripped of all the noise and motion and complications, what was left was so heartbreakingly simple. He lifted his own hand, surprisingly gentle for the strength in it, cradling against Viktor's cheek, thumb running the razor sharp angle of cheekbone.]

Whatever my story winds up being, you're already written in my soul. And my heart. Vik... I... I'm saying too much, aren't I?

[So fucking close. So fucking far.]

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[ Viktor would probably debate and quite largely that things 'started' going wrong when he walked out the door wearing only the blanket that Jayce had wrapped around him. But that was for another day, certainly not their reunion.

His fingers dug lightly into the back of that neck, he could feel Jayce's emotions starting to spike and maybe that was the way that they had been etched and marked into each other; likely one of the positives of both their fusions into the Hexcore. A fond if albeit exasperated smile playing over his lips and then he pulled back but not away from the cupping of his own cheek. Here he was a cat-person, in possession of his own Scientist who bore all marks of moonlighting as a very loyal retriever. ]

You idiotic mess... [ This was said fondly, in that tone that was reminiscent of when they first met-- before Hex stole all of his emotion. ] It has always been you, in my heart and etched on my soul since the first moment I saw you pleading your case before the Council.

[ Viktor supposed that he should spell it out for him. ]

In those seven years, I fell in love with you.. it happened quickly, but I had an expiration date that was far far shorter than yours so I did not believe that I had any right to claim whatever it was, and so I was thankful when you developed something with Mel because it meant that you would be taken care of after I... [ He did not complete that sentance, he did not mean to. ] It just meant I needed to throw myself into Hex and race the clock to have something to show for it all.

[ There, he'd spelled it out. ] I still have a short expiration date, Jayce.

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[They could debate it later. Jayce would concede they'd made a great number of mistakes along the way, but it would always be that moment where Viktor had left where a point of no return had been reached. If they'd stayed together, maybe they could have pulled each other back from that edge before it got to that final, terrible moment.

Now though he was not thinking about endings. Now he was listening in wonder as Viktor called him an idiot and then said the most incredible things.

And ah Mel, kind beautiful brilliant Mel. She deserved better than someone whose heart already belonged to someone else. Maybe they'd both known it too, deliberately choosing not to see it when he'd fled her bed to be at Viktor's side in the hospital. When the world had quite literally exploded around them, and all Jayce had thought for was Viktor and saving him. It always came back to Viktor. It always would.]

I've been in love with you too. Maybe I was too stubborn or dense to admit it, even to myself. But I love you. I love you, Viktor.

[He wanted to say to hell with expiration dates. They'd find a way around it. They had to. But that debate could wait too. So instead he only shook his head. ]

Then we shouldn't waste any more time.

[Jayce closed the distance between them to claim Viktor's lips with his own then, a soft but lingering kiss.]

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[ There was a lot of things that lingered around them, and it was things that had been ingrained in both of their DNA, unavoidable. But for right now he was in Jayce's arms, the only person he'd ever truly loved. Even when Sky had been with him, she'd known that his heart had only one person that it wanted, and while he valued her opinion and friendship, it could never be anyone other than Jayce.

When she'd said "no you won't" he understood what that meant.

So when Jayce's mouth came down on his, and it was his first kiss, their first kiss. And the warmth of Jayce suffused him even before contact was made, it was tender and gentle and it made him ache in a way that was quite unfamiliar to him; it was not the aching of joints which was a truism of his life, across many lives. But it was a deep heart ache made up of all the wasted time finally being filled up to the brim with love and affection.

There was no way he couldn't be affected, the kiss was not even deep; a brush of mouths and still it had his normally pale skin burning pink on the height of his cheekbones as he pulled back a little bit. It felt somewhat like a fever the way that the touch burned through him. ]

Is a kiss supposed to feel like I am fighting off some infection?

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[Jayce had kissed people before, but oh something about this kiss, this first kiss with Viktor, it felt different. It felt like coming home, like falling into the arms that he belonged in. His hand still rested against Viktor's cheek, thumb keeping a slow, repeated caress against skin. His other hand moved to set at Viktor's hip, around to settle at the small of his back, urging him closer even as he took a step in himself.

When Viktor broke the kiss to speak, Jayce couldn't help a laugh.]

I kiss the man I love for the first time, and he starts talking about infections.

[Nerd. Huge nerd. Jayce adored him.]

I guess you're already sick of me, huh? Too bad there's no cure, and you're stuck with me anyway.

[The flush on Viktor's face was a very pretty look on him, and he couldn't resist pressing a kiss to one pink cheek.]

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[ Viktor's eyes noticibly softened, and in a way that he had looked at Jayce many a times while Jayce was busy talking about Hextech, their experiments they were doing for the good of the world-- both Zaun and Piltover. This time though Jayce could see it, the golden like honey texture they took as if they were as warm as the sunlight. ]

You have to admit that the surge of heat is a bit.. well it is almost like a fever, and I have had more fevers than I have had kisses.

[ and then feeling the brush of lips. ] Oh, if there is anything I wish to be cured of.. it is certainly not you.

[ He steadied himself once again though he did take that arm while his hand gripped his own cane tighter. ] Take me to see your laboratory, as I seem to recall that was a promise and a requisite to our 'date'.

[ Viktor knew that Jayce considered it a date, the Scientist was not fooling anyone. ]