"Broken Shards"

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"In the dark
I need to taste the blood
Go on, draw another line
We can cross this time."
- Blindfold by Sleeping Wolf

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[ Essek Thelyss: Shadowhand to the Dynasty.

One who reached further then the Luxon would allow, who would do absolutely anything for knowledge. Oh no, the man did not care for power, not really. He wanted to cast himself into the portal of knowing, he wanted to surrender himself to books and learning without having to deal with the mundanities of socio-politics that all of the Kryn engaged in. It was tedious and it filled him with sickness even as he plastered on an urbane smile for all and sundry to see.

Within the Dynasty, it was customary to take pets of the Empire; they were brought in across the border of Asarius, across the mountains and into the Dynasty. There were Dynasty born pets on the other side, both lost to the ravages of the other's civilization, generally never to be seen again.

Essek had never really had an interest to begin with when it came to pets; at the market he carefully avoided the slave blocks where those not of the Dynasty were paraded around. However, it had come to this-- it had come to his trading of the Beacon, and in return he recieved a Volstrucker to serve him. And yet, for all of that, Essek Thelyss had not thought he would receive a broken Volstrucker.

In fair trade, he and recieved a dossier on the man in question and had perused it with only a small semblance of annoyance while Trent Ikithon had assured him that a man like him could be rebuilt, the honeyed words of a silken snake which Essek recognized.

After all did not a predator recognize another predator? So now he held in his household a man whom had to be guarded carefully, though Essek was not cruel despite how he imagined Dynasty pets were treated, the cage that he had placed this Volstrucker named Bren within, well it was comfortable-- he'd seen pictures of Vergossen so he supposed it must be far better than that place. But he had not precisely interacted with him-- most of his unseen servants were given the walking of him, the care and maintenance of him.

Perhaps because he did not precisely know what to do with him, or what use he had for something broken. Though he arguably did not know what manner of broken the Volstrucker was, but after a week-- he decided perhaps it was time to summon him and see for himself; acertain what sort of work was cut out for him.

If this man was worth putting back together again.

So it was one evening, he had the Empire man summoned to his chambers. ]

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[ Essek did notice things, he noticed how blissed out Bren seemed to be to get into the bath-- it did bring a smile to his lips that unfortunately Bren did catch, and that smile widened to reveal the sharpest indent of teeth being viewed as he poured a near obscene amount of liquid body was onto a bath poof and then he passed it right to his Pet. ]

That is very presumptuous of you.

[ But it caused him to continue that smile, so perhaps there was no harm no foul. It appeared that Bren would get away without punishment for such words to come out of his mouth-- a relief of course. ] But I have little cause to smile which is why I do not, it does not matter to me if people find me attractive or not, it is unlikely I would indulge them as it were as I have no interest in them.

[ But he didn't precisely say anything about indulging Bren, which was perhaps curious, it was as if he was still mulling that concept over in his mind, especially after the things shared between them. ] Though I would like to come back to the safe word subject, it is important that you utilize it if it gets to much; I will not have any pain-bourne of what you feel you deserve for your past-- I am not working with your past, I am working with the present.

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Extremely presumptuous, ja.

[Bren agreed. Presumptuous, but not wrong. He'd stand by the words, especially when that expression lingered on his master's face. That was the one he was talking about after all, the sort of smile that actually lit up those intensely clear and clever eyes, softened the edges of features that were so sharp they may have been carved of crystal.

No interest in them though. There as that glimmer of hope, small and wild that it was, that perhaps he could yet be of use to his master. That he could be..

Ah well. No sense delving into that particular deep and complicated well of thought and imagining. He took the bath poof from Essek with a murmured gratitude and went about cleaning himself of his own stickiness, of the lingering candle wax. His skin tingled and stung in places, but it was not exactly unpleasant. Just the opposite, given that it was a lingering reminder of the punishment, and the praise and sweeter touches that had followed on at the end of it.

Bren looked up from scrubbing at the subject change.]

I... [Oh called out. He should get used to being this clearly perceived, he supposed. Essek saw him. His expression turned faintly chagrinned, and he nodded.]

I will remember that. [A pause and then, a bit more honestly.] I will try to remember that.

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See that you do.

[ Essek said as he tucked himself up on the step leading up and into the waters, he allowed his fingers to slip into the waters, touching a rogue bubble as it floated by, indolently popping it while he watched Bren's expressions, the circuitous way he had of going through every thought in his mind. Eyes were the window to the soul, and for some people like Bren-- even doubly so. ]

I will warn you that tomorrow I will have to go to the office on my own, I have a meeting with the Bright Queen and it is likely best that I do not take a Pet with me. [ Their first official separation since Essek formally opted to take Bren in hand, and whatever would the Pet do with himself while his Master was away. ]

That being said, tomorrow we also have another event to attend though it is not a ball so much as a trip to the Opera, and it means that I will not be able to escape Adeen so deftly. [ It stood to reason of course that Essek and Adeen would share a box at the Opera ] And also I will have to endure his talking during it.

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[Oh. Bren managed not to pout too much at this information, and instead nodded his understanding. He would stay here and find some way to occupy his time. There was the dunamancy book, and his Undercommon study. Also that left plenty of time for pining and yearning too, so that was good, to have some time to really engage in that, as the need there was certainly becoming greater.

The mention of Adeen had Bren's nose wrinkling as he finished rinsing the soap suds off himself, sufficiently clean, probably, but still lingering in the warm water.]

Would you like me to bite him? I'm very new to this and haven't yet been fully socialized, after all. Mistakes do happen.

[It was made as a very solemn offer, but if the way blue eyes danced with amusement, it was mostly meant in jest. Mostly. He'd totally do it if Essek wished though, without hesitating.]

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There is one singular problem with you biting Adeen...

[ Essek folded his arms on the edge and could not help but catch sight of the playful glimmer, it reminded him of isolated moments in his childhood when he was dealing with Verin, and yet there was nothing brotherly about what he felt for his Pet. That was all but a mooted point and did not bear further consideration. ]

That is that I do not wish for my Pet to come back to me diseased.

[ Essek's sense of humor was utterly understatement but the humor there, even if he was only halfway joking, there was a part of that which could be considered serious-- but he was smirking despite himself. ] I do not know where Adeen has been and I do not care to know where he has been, I would not shame his choices if he were not the man that he was.

[ He moved to reach for a fluffy towel then, placing it there on the edge of the tub so that Bren could get out and dry himself out when he found himself ready to do so. ] Take your time in the bath, after all I have been known to enjoy a long soak.

[ausgebrannt]

[Bren found himself blinking at that before a laugh escaped that he had no chance of holding back even if he had tried. Understated yes, and the matter of fact way that the drow had said it struck the failed Volstrucker exactly the right way to shake shoulders in that quiet, breathy laugh -- like the sound was rusty from disuse and only just remembering how it was supposed to go.]

That is a very fair point. I do not wish to catch anything unpleasant.

[A nod as he watched Essek set the towel down.]

Thank you. I will not take long.

[The bath was tempting to linger in, but his curiosity about what treat his Master intended for him was far more intriguing.]

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[ Essek smiled and then very quickly moved from the steps so that he could pop outside of the bathroom, there was the barest shuffling in the bedroom before finally he came back with some comfortable lounge pants as well as a warm-looking pullover sleep shirt made of fine knitted fabric much like his other garments of this caliber, testament that really Bren was being well taken care of.

After Bren dried off, he would find those garments ready for use. Then there was the matter of doing a quick comb through of Bren's hair, all of which Essek was more than happy to provide as truth be told he did enjoy the act of grooming his Pet, making sure that he was neat and presentable even if it was just getting ready for bed. ]

[ausgebrannt]

[Bren slipped from the tub almost as soon as Essek left the room, already well into drying himself off. And okay, yes, maybe he lingered in front of the mirror, looking at the reddened patches left on skin from where the wax had gently seared. Maybe he spared a moment to check out his ass and the lingering marks from the kiss of the crop the night before. They were reminders of pain, yes, but pain that was delivered with a fair and beloved hand, intended to make him better, to help him be worthy of his Master's attention.

Still he didn't tarry, dressing in the soft sleep clothes that were provided for him. He would never argue with Essek brushing his hair either, enjoying that particular piece of the grooming to the point where he felt rather spoiled by it.

Bren did not have the word aftercare in his lexicon for this, but he recognized the gentle treatment in the wake of what had been a very intense punishment session, and he craved it fully.]

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[ Once Bren was up to his standards, every hair in place and his hair neatly tied back so that it did not get mussed during the night, that was when he very carefully took Bren's hand in his own-- sliding his fingers within his Pet's in such a manner that was very intimate, but Essek did not know any other way to do such that he was intending to do.

And their fingers? They felt perfectly together as if they intrinsically belonged there.

Essek tugged against the hand and then lead him out of the bathroom, and then even then past to the door that led out into the corridor. Now, Bren would understand that this long corridor was all Essek's wing, there was the little area that had been allocated for Bren to stay in, a guest bedroom that had been quickly turned into a little Petpen. There was also the little sitting room that attached to Essek's bedroom, as well as the laboratory where the Teleport circle was.

But there was one other room, and Essek was leading Bren therein right now. ]

[ausgebrannt]

[Was the hand holding the treat? Because the hand holding felt like it was probably the treat. Bren spent a long moment looking at their hands joined together, at lavender skin against his own pale complexion. He was still watching them as Essek tugged and he fell into step with him.

He let the drow lead, because of course he did. He had no idea where they were headed, but would follow along obediently. Eventually curiosity got the better of him and he looked around. He did recognize the corridor, the little room where he'd spent the entirety of his first few days here.

But where they were going, that was still a mystery.]

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[ They paused at the door, and Essek let go of Bren's hand so that he could remove a key from his wristpocket, and then he inserted it into the lock and then pushed the door open, and then suddenly they were on a second story landing to a rather large turreted room, and aligning against the walls were rows upon rows of books that went up nearly four stories. Against one of the walls was a rolling ladder unit of which one could scale up at least a single story, and for each landing there happened to be a ladder for it.

There must've been hundreds upon thousands of books, all of them carefully collected over the course of Essek's years. It was clear to see exactly how much of a reader Essek was.

He motioned toward the never-ending bookcases, one could read for years and never be done with all of them. ] This is your treat, the ability to browse. Since I will be off on personal business tomorrow, I thought it would be well if you picked out a few books to occupy your time, so that you are not getting yourself into trouble with your thoughts.

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[Essek had mentioned a library in passing, and Bren had been intrigued at the time. But whatever he had pictured utterly paled in comparison to the sight that greeted him when his master opened the door to a nerd's wonderland. His eyes went wide as he tried to take it all in, the stories of, well, stories. The rows and rows and shelves and shelves.

Bren froze in the doorway, eyes unable to keep still as he looked at each and every piece of the room that he can see.]

I...

[Words had abandoned him entirely, and he turned back to Essek with a quiet but excited,]

Thank you.

[And then quieter, overwhelmed and awed.]

This is amazing.

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[ Essek merely gestured for Bren to do some much-needed exploration. He was not going to regulate this time that Bren was alloted; there was a time limit of a few hours but he thought that would give Bren more than enough time to make a selection or two, he would not balk at two books taken.. not even three. It was something that he would readily allow to Bren, it was a treat that he had been resolved to give the man ever since he had understood that there was the thirst for books within him.

And Essek did not mind sharing. ]

Your gratitude is accepted.. [ Although Essek did not do this for gratitude but something else, perhaps to bring a smile to those lips and a sparkle to those eyes. ] I do have a small novel section if that is your taste though it is all in Undercommon and they are essentially books that my brother has sent to me as jokes. [ Mainly romance novels, things that he was sure that Essek would not read. He was right, of course-- but Essek had kept them because they were gifts from Verin. ]

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[Bren glanced back at his master once more before taking that permission. Oh yes, he would like to look around. At everything. He wanted to see everything in here, to run fingers over the spines and thumb through pages.

Hells, he'd learn whatever languages he had to for reading them, however long it took.

Another cast of his eyes towards the drow with a raise of his eyebrows.]

I do like novels, ja. It will be a good exercise for my Undercommon lessons.

[He'd be delighted when he found they were romance novels honestly. But Bren would invariably be drawn to the magic and history tomes held herein, information about the place that he expected would now be his home for what remained of his life.]

Master... [Eventually he would pause in his browsing and looking back towards Essek once more, pipe up.] ...what is your favorite?

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[ Essek took a seat in one of the wing chairs there on the ground floor, making himself comfortable as he sent a Mage Hand to bring back a few books one by one. Large tomes which were deposited on the little cherrywood coffee table for perusual. At the question though, he tilted his head-- considering it.

His choice of reading for leisure? Well, that was something that he did not know the meaning of.

Perhaps it was because he read magical tomes for fun, he studied because it was one of the few hobbies that he had to himself-- that was not scrutinized. It was his passion and he held it close to his heart. ]

There is a book in the shelves that are reserved for histories, about the Floating Cities of both Avalir and Aeor, I've always been fascinated by the hubris of the two cities, but different. Both thought they were smarter than the gods, but the paths down which they traipsed were far different ones.

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Oh... perhaps I will find that one then. That is a fascinating subject.

[A pause, as Bren considered. Hubris was a deadly thing. Ambition terribly dangerous if not tempered with sense. His own life was a cautionary tale to that exact lesson, laid out and vivid and glaring as fire.

He tried to push those thoughts aside as he slipped back to where he'd seen the histories in his first sweep around the room, eyes scanning the spines from anything about Aeor and Avalir. A soft pleased sound when he located it, and he added it to his small pile. Three books. One of Dynasty history, a novel (because how could he resist) and finally the history of the floating cities.]

Hubris is a lethal thing. That is a lesson I wish I had learned sooner.

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[ He knew hubris well and while he should've held close to the cautionary tales between the pages, he only used them as a guidepost of what not to do. How to do what he wanted to within the confines of safety, he was only one person-- they were entire nations that fell to the ground. Except, the smallest stones could still cast ripples.

Something that Essek had forgotten for the most part.

He picked up a book to leafe through it, his eyes scanning the words as he listened to Bren's words ring out, a tone tinged with regret and chagrin. He looked up then and then he rested his chin in the center of his palm, his own eyes trained carefully on his Pet. ]

I have already determined that Trent Ikithon was not.. kind to you.

[ And then a bit more quietly, almost afraid to ask the question. He was actually treating Bren as a human right now, as an equal with the conversation that they both were having together. Two men in this room who loved books-- a library was a great equalizer ]

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No, kind is not a word he understands. And I was blind to so much of it, for the chance to serve the Empire. Knowledge, power... they are seductive things in the right hands.

[He wandered closer to Essek as he spoke, though there was a far away note in his voice as the words slipped free.]

His training methods were painful. Deprived of sleep and food and warmth. Heads shaved and our clothing replaced with simple robes. There were three of us he chose that year. We were kept isolated from the rest of our peers. He experimented on us to augment our abilities...

[He unconsciously rubbed a hand over a forearm before he added, quieter.] But all of that... my own suffering is not important. I would not despise him for that. I deserve the consequences of my choices. Those are not the things that broke me.

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[ Essek listened to this, but not only that but he percieved that which Bren communicated via gestures- the rubbing of the forearms, the way that the mind seemed to close in on itself and how it touched those features. It was trauma and he recognized it, he had felt it and could recognize at least the surface signs of damage even if he did not know how far down the iceberg ran.

There was a price outside of Bren's dignity, was the first thought that pierced through his psyche. A strong swirl of protectiveness filled him where he wanted to gather the other man up. Instead he clicked his tongue for Bren to come closer, to kneel down beside the chair.

The books were gathered and could be taken by the unseen servants. ]

There is always a price when you surrender yourself to others-- it is easier to face hubris when it is self-inflicted then if others do it to one. [ and he thought of those who looked down on him for not being consecuted ]

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I am responsible for my own sins. I know this. My hands can never be clean.

[He did surrender to Ikithon. And he'd been a child. But that didn't matter. He should have known better, should have seen some sign, should have recognized the mistakes before it was too late.

Before the spark had been lit.

He was in motion at the first sound of that click of Essek's tongue, dropping to his knees beside where his master was seated, looking up to him, an uncertainty in his eyes that was rare when he interacted with the drow.]

I will tell you, if you wish to know. I will tell you the worst that I have done and how I was broken. I will not blame you if you choose to discard me.

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[ A indulgent smile of pleasure at how readily Bren moved in to obey his commands, his fingers moving to gently card through his Pet's hair as if it were finely spun threads of fire. Although, as those words came-- tumbled right out from those lips as if they were tripping over themselves.

He did not know what happened in the past, he was curious but one truth rang out above them all and he spoke them quiet plainly, the ones that felt right. ]

I will not lie and say that I am not curious, because I am but for all that I own your body, your mind is yours and I will not command you to speak something that you find painful unless you choose to speak them. [ His gestures were soft and gentle, a softly hypnotic pass through of fingers through hair. ] It is the one place that I will not claim ownership of--

[ So very unlike Trent Ikithon, of which no place was safe-- not even the mind. But here was Essek saying that he would never infiltrate that private space of Bren's, never twist it or warp it for his own nefarious purposes. What Bren thought, was his and his alone, and he would not gatekeep that. ]

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[Obeying -- especially when it was obeying that beck and call to his master's presence, when it was met with the reward of soft, gentle touch, that Bren could almost pretend was affection -- was a simple matter, and quickly becoming second nature. He tilted his head into that hand, Essek's touch-starved kitten seeking out more contact, more attention.

His breath caught as Essek spoke, as if the words themselves could steal the air from his lungs with the gravity of what his master was promising. The Shadowhand may have been caught up in working with Ikithon, but he was nothing like Bren's former mentor and tormentor.]

You are kinder than he was. Than he is.

[Maybe it was because Essek had not commanded him to speak it that it was easier to say, that he continued speaking, even if his voice had gone quieter, pain and fear in the memory roiling up and stealing any strength in his voice.]

He manipulated my mind, planted false memories and suggestions with magic. He fabricated a reality where my parents were traitors plotting against the Empire, and he told me that I knew what must be done with traitors.

[The only traitor had ever been Ikithon, the entire Cerebrus Assembly perhaps, interested in only their own fortunes and power and motivations.]

I barred the door to my family home while my mother and father were inside. I set the house to burning. The sound of their screaming made it through Ikithon's magical manipulations. But it was too late. I killed them. My mother and my father, who had committed no crime except to love and trust an unworthy son.

[And quieter still.] That is my last clear memory for a decade, until another inmate at the Sanitarium finally rid my mind of Trent Ikithon's magic and restored my sanity. I was caught in my attempt to escape.

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[ Essek listened to this, something in his chest felt painful as he listened. He did not know what it was but he knew the gravity and seriousness of it; he never stopped his strokes against the locks of flashfire hair while he attempted to soothe even though he had not the faintest how to. It made him despise Ikithon just as much as Bren despised Adeen-- perhaps even moreso.

So you would want revenge against him?

[ And then his brows furrowed as he considered his next words. ]

Once he gives me what I need, he is expendable-- and the Dynasty would be none the wiser. [ Was this an offer to kill Ikithon for all the pain that he put a pet he suddenly grew so very attached to. It was an offer to handle him, to give vengeance to the voiceless. ] He is a old man filled with his own ego, with no thought toward the overaching narrative or the boundless knowledge attainable. ]

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[Bren wanted to say that the world would be a better place without Trent Ikithon in it. That more and more foolish children are broken until they become his perfect weapons, put through the old bastard's crucible of suffering and anguish. He wanted to say that he had higher ideals than simply vengeance. And all those things may also be true, but no truer than,]

Ja. I would. I want to see him dead. He deserves worse than death, but death would do.

[His eyes widen as his master continues, as Essek... was that an offer? Bren's heart slammed against his chest.]

He cares about power and his own vanities, this is true.

[Quieter, voice barely above a whisper.] You would... you would offer this? For me?

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I was not aware of how much of a problem Trent Ikithon truly was until you've told me all of the ways in which he has gross abused others underneath him. [ This was matter of fact as he spoke it, looking at the hope in those eyes, the faint sparkle in those eyes that shone like the Lucidian Sea. He wanted his Pet to smile, to be happy and he was never more aware of it then this moment as Bren sat there amid the stacks of tomes and shelves of leather-bound volumes; he would do this for Bren. ]

But he is also a problem for myself what with the knowledge that the Luxon possesses. His purpose is to unlock the Luxon in a way that escapes detection, in a way that does not draw the attention of the Priestesses of the Luxon.

[ His voice is calm and collected. ]

Once the Luxon is opened, I will need to claim it back before Trent is allowed too much scrutiny into it, he would use it for his own selfish purposes whereas I only wish to understand it and the secrets that it holds within it. I do not care for wars and weapons, I just want knowledge.