Saintsmourn

[giveanything]

"Bless me father, for I have sinned," the words tumbled past his lips, ingrained in the well worn pathways of his memory from the years he'd spent in catechism and as an altar boy. Not that Liam was devout anymore -- how could he be, given what he'd become, given what he did and continued to do. The confessional booth was small and dark, light filtering in only dimly through the door and its screen that kept him hidden from the sanctuary beyond and from the priest he assumed would be on the other side.

"It has been... a very long time since my last confession."

What was he doing here? This was ridiculous. He couldn't possibly expect forgiveness and absolution. There had to be true repentance for that, real contrition, and Liam knew he couldn't manage either. He hated what he did, despised every moment of it, but he wouldn't stop. He couldn't stop. The price for disobeying was far too severe, and he would not be the one to pay it. The price for his disobedience and his failure would be paid by his brother, and he couldn't live with that.

So William had made his choice, made it again and again, putting that one life ahead of so many others. And oh he was good at what he did, talented at ruining people, in shattering whatever it was in a human being that kept their souls in place, until they were ready to throw it away. His watcher commended him for it, in a sick and sadistic sort of amusement.

Today's lost soul had been... fuck. It had been hard. She was young, barely nineteen, and her road had already been a hard one. He'd played the game with her for the past few weeks, insinuating darkness and doubt into the cracks of that already-battered soul. Today. Today she'd shattered, and there would be no recovering from it. Another soul for the demon who owned him.

He could feel the panic rising up in his chest, cold and hard and threatening to freeze his lungs so he couldn't draw in enough breath. In the dimness and silence of the confessional, all the carefully constructed walls and facades trembled and fell away. Gone were the easy smiles and quite literal devil-may-care attitude, all the charisma and charm that he relied on in his cursed excuse for a job. It was him and his breathing and the silence and the faceless priest in the chamber beside him. Liam wondered if he could hear the panic in his breathing.

"I... sorry. This was a mistake. I should go. I'm sorry, Father, for wasting your time."

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[eblouissant]

The Priest could see the goodness in the other man, it was a spark but it was there, as long as there was something he felt like he could work with that. It was temptation to be around this man, but he also knew that he was not bad, just that sometimes he did bad things. He carefully reached in the basket and then pulled out another cookie, offering it to the other man.

"Orange cats have quite a bit of heart so I have determined, even if they are less than wise. Leave the wisdom to other people, just let Maurice's preference for your company count for something." offering a smile that touched at the corner, and illuminating his eyes just a little bit.

[giveanything]

"All right. I'll trust Maurice's taste, but only because he is an excellent cat." Liam had already decided that he had to do some shopping to make sure Maurice had what he needed. Litterbox and food bowls and a scratching post and a cat tree and bed and toys. He would spoil his new stray cat son and his utter lack of braincells.

He leaned back into the bench, letting silence fall between them for a few minutes. He couldn't shake the feeling that Riley saw him in a way no one had in a very long time. It was intoxicating and terrifying in equal parts.

"I can still feel your lips on mine..." he broke the silence with the downright wistful statement.

[eblouissant]

Those words ran through him, and spoke to something deep within him.

He looked out to the sea, in the same direction that Liam was looking-- the windbreaker provided very little true warmth but that was fine, the sun was out and shining on them which helped mitigate it. One of probably the last nice weeks before true autumn settled into the trees and leaves, sea and rocks.

"I can as well."

He admitted, he could not lie.

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And here they both were, sitting at the edge of the world. His heart was still fluttering in his chest, skipping beats and falling out of rhythm. It had never done this before, and this was the moment that Liam realized that he might be in trouble, deeply in trouble.

He couldn't bring himself to care enough to retreat like he should have. Instead he ducked his head with a quiet laugh. "I don't think I'll be able to get you out of my head, Father."

Not a chance, really. "And honestly, I don't want to."

[eblouissant]

He had never questioned his vows until that kiss with Liam, and that shook him to his core.

Honestly, he'd never missed sex-- not really and perhaps that was because he had not felt that spark; he'd felt arousal but that had been such a generalized thing and not attached to a singular person. It was something that woke him up in the morning, hard and demanding. But looking into Liam's eyes, he became increasingly aware of how easy it would be to fall.

That terrified him.

And thus, he would do the retreating for the two of them. It was time that he was strong, he shut the basket and then looked at his watch-- nervously and then he got up from the bench. "I should probably head back, I have to be back at the dorms.."

He did not, but it was easy to say that, because if he stayed here he would not be sure of what could happen-- he was attracted and that was clear, but he was also fighting that attracting tooth and nail. He needed to refortify himself because he felt he could not do anything for Liam with this miasma of sinning thoughts going through his mind, all of them forsaking every vow he'd pledged to the church.

[giveanything]

Ah there it was. Liam didn't move when Riley stood, not at first anyway. It was probably better to let the priest make his escape, to go and put distance and time between them so they could, hopefully, let clearer heads prevail. If they could, if there was any way that he could possibly get the other man out from where he'd settled deep in his mind and his heart.

He should let him go now, let that excuse be enough.

Instead he found himself reaching out hooking his fingers into the pocket of Riley's jacket, to stop his retreat, to urge him closer. "This isn't the sort of sin that stains a soul. I wouldn't risk your light." He looked up at the other man through a fringe of thick, dark lashes. "Let me give you this? Please?"

[eblouissant]

For a moment Riley looked at Liam, into those dark eyes fringed with those equally dark lashes, the scruff that made him look very sexy, and the slightly tousled hair; was that a trait of the family to have hair that looked like it was rumpled due some sort of exertion? He'd never thought of it before, but with Liam he wondered if that was what he looked like waking up with his hair all mussed.

"What do you mean?"

There was a bit of wariness to his voice as he was pulled closer. His heart hammering, and it was like a deer that had the strong urge to run away and to avoid temptation. Riley knew that he needed to run, but Liam spoke in such a bedroom voice and he was nearly stricken speechless with it.

[giveanything]

Liam looked up at the priest still, watching him with dark eyes made darker by the desire that was flooded through him. He knew this was a bad idea, knew he had no business asking for this, but he wanted it. Oh he wanted it, wanted Riley, so much it was making him genuinely stupid.

Another gentle tug at the jacket to urge Riley to turn towards him, to step closer. His free hand slipped beneath that jacket, fingers curling into his belt.

What did he mean? He meant this, Riley. He meant things that were very much against vows made to a church, but were, at their essence, very fundamentally human and divine in their own right.

"I mean pleasure. I mean losing yourself, for just a little while. I mean one night, together." Just one kiss. Just one night. What damage could that really do?

[eblouissant]

Riley could feel his resolve slip and it was not fair, not fair that Liam look at him like that with those dark eyes and not expect him to fold. An almost pained look crossed over his features, as if he was being sorely tempted. He did not try to tug away though his voice was hoarse.

"I cannot...'

But why was there a question mark there, the slightest inflection and raised tone. It felt like he was on the tumbling brink of falling into it especially since he did not tug away. "You are asking something I should not give but I am tempted, you are tempting me."

But he did not blame the tempter, he blamed himself for being so easily filled with something unspeakable, for wanting exactly what the other man promised-- his lips parting and his blue eyes gleaming as if he had to fill his mouth with air and his eyes with light to try to ease the shadows of undeniable desire that tendriled around him. "I want you, but can a single kiss save you? Can one night save you?"

[giveanything]

Liam started to open his mouth again, to say that it wasn't temptation, that the only sin in this was what they brought with them into it, that it did not have to be about tempting or breaking vows, just about connection and desire and...

And then Riley asked those questions.

Ah. It was a reminder just there of how good Riley was, how warm he shone, how Liam would only ruin something in the good priest if he were not careful. And even if he wanted to cling to that I want you because he had never heard anything half so sweet as those three words.

He swallowed and with a reluctance that was near tangible with how heavy it was, he let his hands fall away. "No, it can't." His eyes shut for a moment, and he took a breath, stealing himself to look back up at the priest, summoning a smile. He was beyond saving, Riley. He knew that.

[eblouissant]

If it meant saving Liam's soul, if it had been something far greater; he would have done it in a heartbeat-- would have thrown his vows away if it had meant saving if only one person-- he would have done it. In tales, people were saved by love at it's purest common denominator. That did not make this any less complicated to him however and so he felt the way that Liam's fingers fell from his belt and he let out a breath.

Oh but he was only a red-blooded man, he experienced temptation far greater then most, it always was said that forbidden fruit tasted the sweetest and Liam's kiss still burned upon his tongue.

However he leaned down then, brushed a dark curl from forehead and pressed his lips against that forehead. It would feel like a benediction, but it would also bear heat-- not uncomfortable but still weight to it. "I need to get back." that kiss was an apology too, that he could not betray his vows; there was regret behind it that he could not.

[giveanything]

That was part of the problem wasn't it? Liam knew he was unsaveable and unlovable, and the two of those might be so intrinsically connected there was no untangling one from the other. He knew it, deep in the core of his bones and the depths of his broken little heart. So why did being near this priest stir small flickers of almost unbearable hope?

He was probably fooling himself, probably torturing himself for no real reason. There was no world in which this was anything but some mad, ridiculous dream. But he couldn't forget the taste of Riley's lips, didn't want to forget it. It made him feel human for the first time in, well, a very long while. His eyes fell shut as those lips left that blessing on his forehead. It felt like goodbye, in a weightier way than the priest likely meant it. liam nodded as Riley spoke. "Goodbye, Father. Thank you, for the picnic." He meant the thanks. It had been nice to step outside his own life for a little while and just exist with someone like this gentle priest.

Liam would not reach out to stop him again, as much as he may have wanted to. Instead his gaze deliberately avoided meeting Riley's again, as if he didn't think he could trust himself not to do something horrifically embarrassing like begging him to stay if he chanced it. Instead he looked out over the water, the way the sunlight played in dancing sparks and flashes on the uneven surface.

[eblouissant]

Riley collected his things and the basket, but he left the remainder of the cookies there as if it could make up for something; an offense caused, a disappointment tendered. It ached to disappoint the other man and he felt it all the way back home. He thought about his vows, and what they had meant.. he thought about the expectations that were heaped upon himself when all he wanted to do was sink into the other man's touch.

The kiss had not meant nothing, in fact the reason why he had said no was because he knew that another taste and he would not have been able to stop himself, it was something innate within him.

He came back to the dorm to get ready for his rounds, he'd stolen moments and now it was time to get back to the world of Saintsmourn; he checked a few rooms, left a few notes for corrections (though framed in the nicest way possible) and his mind was still on those melancholy brown eyes that spoke of such sadness.

He dreamed of those eyes, he dreamed of other things as well-- waking up pulsing and hot.

A few days went passed and he tried to avoid going into the village and walking past the antique store where he knew Liam to be, best to fortify himself-- but that was easier said than done, now wasn't it? The thing was that the temptation did not go away, his thoughts-- they were in his thoughts, the idea of Liam and him. A seed had been planted that he could not just let go, his mind ruthlessly tended this soil where it had been planted, and reminded of those sprouts every single night.

[giveanything]

Riley was not the only one plagued by dreams. It hardly felt like a plague during the dreams of course. No, they were some small sliver of a heaven that Liam knew he had no business and no nope of actually seeing. There would be no getting the other man out of his mind, and he was trying to do his best to accept that and move on despite. He made no attempt to see the priest again over those few days, not sure he could trust himself not to throw himself at Riley which what remained of his pride told him would be a bad thing somehow.

Instead he busied himself with his new role as Cat Dad. Maurice had been scooped up and brought to his little studio apartment above the antique store. The orange boy had been showered in all the accoutrements that came with being a spoiled housecat and seemed to be enjoying his new, warmer, much more comfortable life. He'd even tolerated the bath that Liam had visited upon him the first night with only a little pathetic pitiable mewing.

But all this did not mean that Riley would be allowed to think he'd been forgotten. A few days after their little not-date on the ocean cliffs, a rather large package would be delivered to the priest's quarters. It was a solid wooden bookcase, five feet tall, intricate leaf carvings up along the trim at the sides and top and bottom. It was clearly old, antique even (go figure), but it had been rather painstakingly restored and refinished. A card included stated simply, "Maurice thought you'd like this. - L"

[eblouissant]

The package was not something he had been expecting, and yet it showed up and at first he was confused when the deliverymen knocked on his door and then dollied the bookcase in, and then there was a bookcase that he had lamented over not having, right now in his quarters, the perfect size for all of his books and with plenty for the books he would likely collect.

He did a bit of arranging that evening, smiling to himself at the unexpected boon in the form of a bookcase; but also the thoughtfulness of the other man remembering, and the mention of Maurice.

After he was satisfied putting everything in the right place, even adding a little vase with a few wildflowers-- Asters and Wild Columbine as was native within this area. Then he snapped a picture and sent it to Liam.

Thank you for remembering, I had completely forgotten.

Are you and Maurice roommates now? Also what do I owe you for the bookcase?

[giveanything]

Liam was in the middle of another carpentry project when the text came in. This project was not his usual though, and it involved far too many allen wrenches, but hell or high water Maurice was going to have this cat tree. He was trying to parse the visual directions and decide whether the piece in his hand was piece A3 or B1 when the sound of his phone interrupted his deciphering of these horrible hieroglyphics. He couldn't help a smile at seeing who it was from, and the picture attached to it.

Don't mention it, Father. Looks like you're making good use of it already. I'm glad. And yeah, Maurice has moved in. He's a pretty good roommate so far, but every time I bring up splitting the rent he suddenly has an important nap to take. I probably should've run a credit check. Oh well. He's good company at least.

You don't owe me anything. Consider it a gift. And an apology for crossing a line.

Or several lines.

[eblouissant]

A gift, a beautiful one-- even as Riley allowed his fingers to trace against one of the leaves shimmering. This was a beautiful gift, far more beautiful then he could've hoped. He then set about a response text.

How about this? I still insist on doing something in return for this gorgeous bookcase, so I will keep an extra eye on your brother? Is that an acceptable trade?

[ It was not much, but he knew that Liam cared very deeply about Trick. ]

Part gift, and part handler's fee.

[ There was the Priest's sense of humor coming through, showing that he did have a witty sense of humor. ]

[giveanything]

That is a full time job in and of itself, you know. But thanks. He's a magnet for trouble, even if his heart is in the right place.

Trick's heart was always in the right place. His baby brother had a tendency to see things in black and white, and that made him a little rash sometimes, when he saw something wrong that he felt compelled to right. It was one of the many reasons that Liam worried about him. It was also one of the many things that had driven the rift between them, but Liam figured it was better to let that remain. The last thing he needed was Trick finding out about the reason he did what he did, about his deal and the price he'd been paid to forfeit his soul.

I'm glad you like it though. Really.

There were texts he wanted to send, things he desperately wanted to say. But through some miracle of self control he managed not to, sighing quietly even as Maurice, sensing his new owner's restlessness appeared to aggressively headbutt his hands until he dropped the phone, which somehow managed to turn on the voice message recording.

"Hey that's my phone, Maurice! I'm fine, you furry little menace. Just a little heartbreak. I'll survive," a quiet murmur followed by the audible sound of a cat purring up a storm as Liam scratched at the tomcat's cheek.

"Heartbreak?" Another voice, deeper, the accent strangely unplaceable, not quite British, not quite American, and tinged at the edges of the consonants with a hard edge from some language long forgotten by most who still walked the Earth. "That's sweet that you still think you have a heart, pet. Always the optimist, my little reaper."

"Gregory." Liam's voice again, but different than Riley would have heard it before, quiet and guarded, subdued and with none of his usual bravado and charm. "What are you doing here?"

"What am I doing here? What kind of question is that? I'm here to check up on my property. You've been avoiding me, William. We can't have that. Do I need to remind you who you belong to?"

"No. That's not necessary. I--"

"Oh I think it is. I think it's very much overdue." The demon smiled and reached down for the cellphone Maurice had knocked to the floor. He noticed the recording and hummed softly. Oh. Interesting. "I have no intention of losing what is mine. Now come here, pet." With that he rather deliberately ended the unintentional recording and very intentionally sent it on so that whoever this new friend of Liam's was, he'd understand that he was trespassing. More importantly though, he noted the name. Riley, hmm? Interesting. He'd have to find out more about this Riley. Later.

[eblouissant]

Riley had smiled at the phone before he set it aside. He had a little bit more work to do and a round of his scheduled dorms to go; to make sure that there was nothing weird nor random going on. Often times he did leave his phone on his bed while he did so and that was only because he did not want any distraction-- no matter what he did, he attempted to be present.

It was an hour later when he came back and checked the phone, he opened it up to see a rather sizeable voice message from Liam. A furrow of his brows as he started to listen, a smile on his lips at the byplay between man and cat in what clearly was not intentional. An accident; how adorable Liam sounded scolding his roommate.

However the smile on his lips slowly died as he heard what came next. The voice, Liam's own voice holding those hints of steel and sadness, the declaration of ownership, the ending of the voice message before whatever happened.

Riley could only assume what happened next.

He sat with it for a moment, for two moments-- his eyes staring into the wall as he processed this, the very idea of demon possession that Liam had told him about but which had not seemed so much a reality as it did now. A pang of thunder and rain pattering against the window was the only thing that brought him back to reality. The sun had set, all was darkness.

How long had he sat there in a daze, processing what he had heard?

Feet hit the ground and then he pushed himself up from the bed while he shoved the phone into his jeans pocket. And then he was out the door and down the hallway, as fast as he could go-- he was running and did not understand how his feet had caught him to the threshold of Saintsmourn before he was out and into the pouring ran, down the cobbled pathway as he beat feet as fast as he could out the gate.

No coat, no nothing. Just a sopping sweater and blond hair that plastered to around his face as he did not dare stop until he got to the village antique shop. There was a light upstairs, he went up to the door and started to bang on it as if all of hell was behind him, as if there was something that was possessing him.

"Let me in!" he shouted, not caring if the neighbors came out to wonder what in the world a Priest of Saintsmourn was doing in the early evening. He had even forgotten that he had a phone in his pocket, if he had been thinking, he could have easily taken it out and sent a text message to Liam.

[giveanything]

Liam hadn't realized that his phone had betrayed him yet. He hadn't exactly thought to pick it up to look, not with Gregory there. And Gregory had been there far too long this time. But thankfully, by the time Riley was pounding at his door, the demon had finished with him and taken his leave. Honestly Liam didn't know what he would do if Riley had arrived while his keeper was still there. The very last thing he wanted was for Gregory to even have awareness that the priest even existed; nothing good came from the demon's attention falling on someone good and kind like Riley.

He heard the pounding on the shop door. A floor below, but it was loud and frantic enough that he couldn't miss it. Frowning, he considered ignoring it. Whoever it was couldn't possibly need an antique that bad, right? He was tempted to just burrow further under a blanket on his couch and wait for the world to forget he existed. Instead he made his way from his apartment down the back staircase into the shop proper. Night had fallen, and the streetlights had kicked on not long ago now, and in their dim light even through the frankly torrential rain, he could make out the figure standing there. His eyes went wide and his step quickened to bring him to the door, fumbling with the bolt before jerking it open.

"Father? What are you doing here? It's hellish out there. Get inside before you get washed away." He stepped back enough to let Riley inside and out of the weather. The shop was small but neatly kept, scented of wood and varnish and the unmistakable scent of old leather and paper, only the lights that Riley had flipped on as he hurried to the door shedding any light. It was enough to see by anyway. Liam looked a mess. His hair was damp still from the shower he'd taken, mostly standing in the spray as hot as he could stand it until the hot water had run cool. He'd pulled on a pair of flannel pajama pants and an oversize hoodie, his feet bare and just now noticing the chill of the floor beneath them. Even with the hoodie, a bite mark was visible on his neck -- and not a playful love bite. Teeth had both bruised and broken the skin and thensome, a deliberately visible and ugly thing left with him as a reminder. The dark circles under his eyes seemed darker tonight as well. Though perhaps stranger still, and more alarming, was the fact that in the low light shadows seemed to swirl behind him, emanating from his shoulders like tattered spectral wings. Piece by piece, he was losing more of his humanity. Eventually there'd be only the parts of him that had been twisted into something demonic left. Liam didn't seem to be aware of this, or at least he was far too busy looking at Riley in concern.

"Did you need an end table to go with the bookcase this bad?" It was a thin joke, but it was his best attempt at acting like himself. "I've got a few I can show you, but first we're going to get you a towel and something hot to drink. Come on." He apparently did not expect to be argued with, since he reached back to grab a hold of Riley's hand and start to lead him to the rear staircase and up to his apartment so he could get the priest dried off.

[eblouissant]

He was not okay.

There was nothing okay about the dark circles underneath those eyes, and his eyes strayed downward until it hit where the bite lay bruised and ugly, with little streaks of blood still dried from where teeth dug in and broke skin. Riley took this in with those disassociated blue eyes, though the swirling miasma-- he caught that, and he wondered if it was his imagination, except they looked far too real and pressing to be a figment of a nightmare.

His hand was caught and then he was dragged up the stairs.

But he stayed there, stayed there rooted and did not follow him, not yet. He had rain dripping from every point on his face, and he looked a mess as well but that was not important, no of course it was not.

"You are not okay." He spoke this and it had an almost hollow sound to it, "Are you?" this was a question, but he knew that Liam likely had his pride as well, he tried to get Liam to turn around and face him, there on the steps leading up to the apartment. From where they were standing, Liam's face was in shadows, and Riley's held the outline of the light that backlit Liam, like a nimbus around him.

He reached with his free hand and dug into his pocket, finally remembering it was there-- and then he clicked the play button. After all, he had not tabbed away from their texting messages. In the desolate staircase it played, first Liam talking to Maurice, and then Gregory-- for a long moment it played before the message was ceremoniously cut off.

Then Riley spoke and it was quiet. "You deserved none of that." and even more quietly, a whisper. "I do not think I should leave you alone tonight."

[giveanything]

Liam stopped in his tracks when it became clear that Riley was staying rooted to the spot in the staircase. He sighed "This isn't some ploy to get you up to my apartment, I promise. You're soaked, and it's cold and--" He cut off at that statement. Question? Whatever it was. He still had Riley's hand and was still facing up the stairs here he was headed. Slowly he turned, not sure what to make of the question, of how to answer it, his brow furrowed and concern for the priest replacing some of that emptiness in his eyes, and as that concern grew, the shadows retreated, still overpowered by what small shreds of his humanity remained. "Me? I'm not the one out in a nor'easter without a coat. I'm fine." Liam was very decidedly not fine, but Riley couldn't actually know that.

Except apparently he could. His voice started playing in the empty staircase and he could feel a cold weight drop in his stomach. Liam visibly flinched at the first sound of Gregory's voice, staring in wide-eyed horror at Riley before looking away. It wasn't something he'd have wanted anyone to hear, any of it, but especially how small he sounded, how damaged. "I... I didn't know... it wasn't supposed to... you weren't supposed to..."

What must the priest think of him? He couldn't bring himself to look at the other man's face to find out, too much of a coward to actually face it. "I'm sorry. You shouldn't have had to hear any of that." He almost missed those last whispered words, but they were what finally snapped his gaze back to Riley's, dark eyes plainly startled, confused by the statement.

[eblouissant]

Riley walked up to the step just below Liam while he jammed his phone back in his pocket-- then once there he released Liam's hand put only so that he could place first one palm and then the other against cheek, pulling him down until they were forehead to forehead, until Liam could feel the wet plaster of hair.

He did not attempt to look further into Liam's eyes, he knew the vulnerability there and did not want to intrude upon those secret and personal windows to the soul. "You deserve so much better." He repeated as if it was a litany that he could offer the other man.

He crossed the very small distance and brushed his lips against Liam's-- trembling and soft, as if the other man was a precious and priceless treasure; the priest tasted of rain and also sugar cookies and he gave that comfort to Liam in this moment.

Without any expectations of being given anything back.

This was not about sex or lust, it was about intimacy-- about becoming the balm to be wrapped around Liam's soul; tendrils of healing as if it could reach the darkness and sweep it away.

[giveanything]

Liam did not know what to expect when Riley moved closer, immediately jumped to the worst when the priest released his hand, only to be bewildered in the next moment by the way those hands cradled so gently at either side of his face. He did not resist though, letting his forehead rest against the other man's, a sudden unsteady beat taking grip on his heart as if it couldn't decide whether it needed to calm or panic.

"You're wrong. I don't. I..."

He'd done awful things, and he deserved every consequence that came his way. Somehow he'd tricked Riley into thinking better of him than he deserved. He would have argued more, but then those lips were against him and they were so soft and so gentle, and he'd never known a kiss could be like this, could nearly knock his feet out from under him with how warm -- and yes treasured -- it made him feel. He could taste the rain, could taste that something sweeter, and this must have been what Heaven tasted like, a Heaven that he would never know but oh he'd take this glimpse of it.

Kissing the priest back, he couldn't hold himself back from wrapping his arms around Riley's neck, molding himself up against the other man. He didn't even bother to break from the kiss before he spoke, the words a hushed, trembling whisper. "Please don't leave."

[eblouissant]

The softest scratch of facial hair, the press of mouth to mouth-- and then the almost desperate whisper begging him not to leave. And all he could think of, could convince himself was that he was providing Liam with something, that this was not a lie. He fortified himself, he knew that if he wanted to-- if he felt he needed to he could leave and Liam would understand.

The thing was? That he did not want to in the slightest-- not when he had something to share with the other man.

"I won't." he promised with a bedraggled chuckle against Liam's lips before he was dragged under again, into the kiss.. into that embrace He did not let go of those cheeks, pressing open mouthed kisses with the barest hint of tongue while he stood there a step down from Liam. "Whatever you need.. I am here." like a guardian angel.