: Hanahaki - Guess I'll Just Die :

[blackradley]

It was truth that Alec was not as restless as Seregil was; their little place on Half Moon Street was well lived in, though the treads in the carpet were not from Alec, not even remotely. Alec could be content to just sit in a wing chair and read, in dreaming-- in moving through books and ideas all of the ways that the world had not opened up for him before his first meeting with Seregil.

Though he did miss Seregil's presence, the chaos in the other side of the room; in all of his soliloquys and ramblings, his plotting and scheming.

The rain pattered outside, and Ruetha had found a good thing in his calmness. Her goal of comfort was to spend days in Alec's lap, and then cuddle in with Seregil at night and he supposed, as he scritched just behind her ears, that it must be a very sweet deal indeed. Thankfully she allowed him just enough time to turn the page before he returned back to his ministrations.

A lock of blonde hair fell in his eyes, those blue eyes that managed to convey so many emotions-- both wonder as well as stubbornness; but this time calm. Occasionally he would have to let out a cough which he covered with his hand-- not precisely noticing the petal that disguised itself within his palm before it fell casually and wedged within the couch cushions where one would find a veritable sea of them hidden underneath.

He thought about getting up to go search Seregil out, though he thought perhaps the other man did not want to be disturbed. Tried not to think about if Seregil was at the Avenue of Lights, perhaps in the arms of his green eyed boy. No, best not to think about that, he'd only be setting himself up for a long train of thought that he was not prepared to board.

So he sat there, whiling away the moments.

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Seregil smiled the smile of a cat who'd gotten the cream as Alec's hole tightened around his fingers, as Seregil watched the new pleasure wash over his lover's face. And then there went his Alec with a million questions. Was it wrong to be only further endeared because Alec was very much Alec even here -- even while he was half breathless with desire, even as Seregil was working him open so that he could fuck -- wanting to understand everything.

"That was what I was looking for, tali. And yes it always feels this way. It would be the same for me, if I were in your place and you were in mine. I could make you come for me just like this, you know..." By way of proof and demonstration, he continued the deliberate massage of fingers against that nub of flesh.

And there was something appealing about the idea of slowly taking Alec apart while he watched, in every way that he could think of, until his lover understood each and every way that he could be pleasured and made to rise to heights and tumble in ecstasy from them. Just now though, Seregil could feel his own arousal as an aching reminder, a throb at the thought of being inside him. "But I want so much to be inside you, to find our release together."

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With the continued milking of his prostate, his hand fell away from his arousal. And that was mainly because he did not think that continuing was sustainable, especially with the somewhat evil smile from Seregil and the way that he'd seen absolute stars during the moments when he closed his eyes, a universe that Seregil was coaxing with his fingertip.

"Illior's Light..." because yes, he was seeing light about now.

He also wanted to make Seregil feel like this, feel the sweetness of such a thing; it was an overwhelming pleasure bourne from trust and mutual desire; all ideas that he would not like it fled (though arguably, Alec did manage to keep an open mind about most thing, easier with his continued association with Seregil) and he wanted more.

"I would like that.." he said this with such brazen honesty, with each moment the sure feeling of home growing. "Please Seregil." he whispered breathlessly and half drunk in love with the man above him, his fingers finding Seregil's hair to comb through them. "Show me...."

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Seregil could not have dreamed of saying no to that sweet, breathless plea, especially not when what Alec was asking for was what Seregil's own being was clamoring for as well. He drew his fingers free from that tight passage, sparing a moment for his own arousal, to stroke the slick of the oil down himself.

He slipped Alec's leg from where his ankle had taken rest on his shoulder, coaxing it instead to wrap about his hip as he settled closer. After all, while he did intend on bending Alec in half and fucking him until they both saw the face of the divine, he didn't want to have to include any contortionist acrobatics in order to kiss him while he did so. "All right, my beautiful one, I'll show you."

Pressing fingers into the back of one strong, lean thigh, he urged Alec's hips back enough that he could settle close, his prick a teasing pressure, not quite breaching that entrance yet. His gaze sought out Alec's, a murmur of his name on his lips as he rocked his hips forward to begin sinking inside that eager, tight heat.

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His thighs wrapped completely around that waist with the urging and guiding, body to body and twined with such sweet intent, all of his trepidation had disappeared and he was engaging completely as the talimenos bond beckoned him like a siren's song. For a moment his eyes went dark as he watched Seregil work oil into his shaft-- slender but long, he could appreciate art and the other man's had a subtle curve like a bow and he knew that he'd be able to handle it.

Words were never his strong suit, but then actions were and the expression was full of aching want and then Seregil pressed, started to press in and he wrapped his arm around that shoulder.

The pressure was far more noticible than any pain, the concept of being filled and the thought of if Seregil would not exactly fit. But still he kept his eyes locked on his lover's while he kept himself pliant for Seregil's shaft.

"Tali..." he said, brushing their mouths together as he said that-- letting the other man taste the endearment upon lips. In a moment like this he could not imagine a life without Seregil, without being like this as both friend and lover.

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Seregil would remember this for the rest of his (possibly if he wasn't his stupid self one too many times) many long years, would remember how Alec looked, flushed and breathless, those blue eyes that put the sky on a clear summer evening to shame, those arms and legs around him, the way it felt as he slowly sank inch by inch inside that tight, perfect body.

He was trembling, he realized, at the effort to keep himself measured and paced, at the way emotion threatened to sweep him under like a rogue wave on the ocean as he tasted that endearment on his lover's lips. "Tali..." he murmured back, punctuated it with another soft brush of those lips to Alec's. "I love you."

Loved him. Would always love him, always need him, always ache for him in heart and body and soul. Seregil slipped one arm beneath Alec, bracing his weight on his elbow up but also pressing his hand between his shoulder blades, holding tightly to him. His other hand had dropped to grip at the blond's thigh as he slowly sank inside him, inch by inch. Another gentle rock forward, and he found his hips flush to Alec's (offensively) perfect ass, fully hilted inside him.

He took the moment to catch his breath, to let his gaze search his lovers to make sure that Alec was all right, that he wasn't too much or too fast.

[blackradley]

It was nice having time to get used to Seregil's prick inside of him, because to be honest as the slow and steady suited him just fine-- though with the way that the pressure was converting naturally to pleasure? Well he was completely enchanted by it in the best possible way, and knew that he'd want to do this with Seregil again.

But it was the look that did it, the uttered endearments.

Alec was not a romantic person by any stretch, but he could feel it in this moment binding around the two of the,, the press of fingers against his back and the whispered breath of Tali which felt like it meant something far more than what he'd been led to believe it meant. "I love you too." he murmured this, and then allowed his hands to move through Seregil's hair and then he was clutching to those strands of hair while he kissed the other man breathless.

And of he was precocious enough that he thrust his hips back up against Seregil, in a shallow deep movement. Alec who did nothing in halves, who once he committed to something was a force of cardinal nature.

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Seregil smiled as those words were spoken back to him, letting the feeling roll through him. Alec loved him, in the same way that Seregil loved him. It was warmth and belonging and relief like he could finally breathe -- which, given the sudden lack of flowers blossoming in his lungs, he could, but it was more than that.

Then he Alec was once again proving what an alarmingly fast learner he was, because between the way those fingers gripped into his hair and the way Alec kissed him like he had been starving for him, Seregil felt the world spinning. But he kissed him back with equal fervor.

Fingers gripped tighter at the other man's hip as he felt that roll against him, taking it as Alec asking him to move. So he did, a roll of his own hips, drawing his hips back before thrusting forward, slow, long deliberate thrusts that had him plunging deep inside him over and over again.

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Over and over, yes. Just like that, it was the waves in the ocean the way that their bodies moved together. A backward and forward, nothing painful but a blossoming as some unspoken bonds wrapped around their hearts and bound them closer and closer together. Each thrust evidenced a hitched breath that was like fire rolling through him, and he could not get enough of Seregil, could not get enough of the Aurenfaie against him.

Thighs tightened around Seregil's hips, and he nipped at lower lip, at chin.. at anything that could get him closer with the other man, until their heartbeats became one. Maybe he was understanding those slightly bawdy songs that Seregil sang, and the appeal of them-- of getting heated just thinking about your lover, he felt that maybe that would become a problem in the future.

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Seregil breathed soft, sweet praise to Alec's ear, how dearly he wanted him, how perfect it felt being this close, inside him, moving together as one. His dark hair -- at least the parts of it not currently held in Alec's grip -- fell about the both of them like a thick curtain.

"Is it good? Tell me, tali..." He wanted to know, to hear what Alec felt, to know what he liked, what he wanted.

His hand shifted from its near bruising grip at Alec's hip, sliding between them to wrap his fingers around his lover's prick, moving to stroke him in time with each driving thrust he made against him. Waves on the ocean indeed.

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"It is.. it is very good." he breathed almost reverently against those lips, nuzzling their noses together even as he uttered a soft very unalec-like expletive when his cock was taken in hand, he felt feverish but it was also good. "I'd like to do this again, also to do it to you.." so there, Seregil-- Alec liked it, liked this carnal act, that was all the battle in terms of sexual intimacy.

And how honest he was too, in his body reaction as well as in his expressions, the dawnlight that backlit his eyes and the way that he worried his lower lip with his teeth as if trying to keep back the pleasure but being unable to.

"I'm probably going to.. again. All over your..." yes stomach, hand-- likely both.

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Seregil could feel something warm in his chest, a different feeling than the heat of desire and lust that were certainly white-hot in their own right. It had more to do with the way Alec sounded so wonderfully breathless, how his lover nuzzled at him with that clear affection even as they were both being driven on in near-desperate passion.

He smiled though, tilting his chin to brush a kiss to those lips. "I'd like that too. And we will. We will do this again and again. And you will have me, too. I want to know what it's like to feel you inside me too." Again and again and again, Seregil rather thought, in each and every way they could think of.

It felt a bit like something had been unlocked in him, and he had a feeling it had in Alec as well. "Mm... good. I want you too. Let yourself go for me."

For him. Because of him. It was a possessive desire that he probably ought to be better about, but couldn't help the surge in the moment. "I won't last long either."

[blackradley]

The bond was there between the both of them, and it's edging around their hearts would not be stopped. Truth was that their bodies curled into each other so beautifully, so wonderfully and each stroke against his prostate had him seeing those self same stars, but it was far more intense. They were no longer pinpricks, but all-out supernovas crashing into each other, robbing all sense and thought from him.

His heels dug into the back of Seregil's thighs and his entire body was stretched taut like a bowstring.

Would go off at a moment's notice. He wanted to let go for Seregil because he trusted him more than he trusted anyone else in this world -- not even the Cavishes (though they were very close) but now Seregil was crooning such beautiful things as he edged him on with words and then suddenly Alec lost it, lost the entire plot as come burst forth from his cock guided onto those fingers, that hand, spreading over chests (both theirs) and fuck but it acted as a near river finally undammed.

"Tali..." he quietly hissed, but it was like a loud crash in Seregil's room.

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Seregil wondered if Alec would understand the extent of what he did to him, how he'd in the time they'd known each other turned Seregil's entire world on its axis, and so much for the better. Now with this, he'd be ruined for any other lover, would only ever want Alec, this warmth and connection between them.

It changed everything, yes, but somehow it also felt like it changed precious little too. Alec had already been someone he loved, this was a new facet of it, another shining piece revealed that left the warmth and trust and affection of the foundation they had built between them.

He felt as much as saw Alec lose himself, the arch of that body against him, the constriction of that already tight hole around his prick, the hot splash of his lover's release against his chest, over his fingers, and he stroked him through it, smearing seed down along his length.

A moan of his own at that exquisitely sweet tali in that voice so overcome with ecstasy. Perfect. Genuinely. "Tali..." he murmured back then dissolved into a litany of love and praise and promises, though all were spoken in a rush of Aurenfaie as his hips crashed desperately against the blond again and again before Seregil crashed through his climax as well, body going taut as he spilled rope after rope of his own seed, painting the inside of his lover white, only barely managing to hold himself from collapsing on top of the other entirely.

[blackradley]

It had not been this way with the previous ways in which he had indulged carnally in such things, he'd orgasmed but it had felt.. nice. And nice in the way that well, the orgasm was an orgasm and he'd felt it, he'd also gotten his partners off which had been pleasant. He liked it when both parties were getting what they wanted. But there was no true crashing until now, until he felt the way that Seregil arched against him.

It was a storm, it was waves, it was a collision that was fated to happen.. most importantly?

It was unstoppable.

Oh fuck, he was a panting limp mess against the pillows and yet still interested in Seregil's own orgasm, saw the beautiful aurenfaie crest and then crash against him, and then the feeling of hot seed within him, the afterspasms of his own orgasm that clenched around Seregil and reminded him of his previous orgasm, and then when Seregil hunched over him after his own starfall.

He pulled him down so that Seregil was laying aaginst him, because he did not mind being collapsed on. In fact, he wanted that intimacy. Craved it, even.

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Seregil was trembling in the wake of his release, and it took precious little encouragement from Alec for him to go boneless and drape atop him. He was breathless, quietly panting as he tried to catch his breath back. His own mind was swimming as he soh so slowly came down from his orgasm.

He nuzzled against Alec's cheek, still purring soft endearments to his lover, half in Skalan, half in Aurenfaie, and a few no language at all just vague sounds that spoke of contentment and love.

"I didn't know..." Seregil murmured softly, once his thoughts started making coherent sense once more, "I thought I understood pleasure, but this... you... you are incredible." He lifted his head enough to seek out Alec's lips. "I think you've ruined me for anyone else, tali."

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"That is high praise from someone who is perhaps the most eligible bachelor in Rhiminee." Alec said with a breathless laugh as he stroked through Seregil's hair; carding through locks as if they were the finest of silk; he was pleased-- of course hew as, but also marveling at how wonderful it had felt, quite unlike he had expected it to.

"So I think that I enjoyed it a lot, more so than I enjoyed the act with anyone else." truth, absolute truth and there was no way that he could tell a lie in such a spontaneous way like this, not without practicing in front of the mirror until he got it down right. Too much raw emotion in those blue eyes.

"Does it.. ah.. bother you that I ruined you for anyone else?" though that mouth caught his and gave him all the answer he needed. "Truth me told.." in between kisses, "I am forever ruined as well."

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"Mm... Lord Seregil is a rake. Who in their right mind would have him?" He teased, quite near purring the more that his hair was played with. "Thinking about it, we may need to adjust that cover story, a little." Lord Seregil and Sir Alec had already been stretching the credulity of many who met them that it Alec was no more than Seregil's ward.

He caught Alec's lower lpi between his teeth, a playful little nip, entirely thrilling at Alec saying he liked this between them more than he did with the others he'd lain with. And he knew it was true, because Alec -- when he was not playing his part in some scheme or another, when he was talking about his own thoughts and feeling -- was so achingly earnest and honest and Seregil knew those eyes, precious and beloved, far too well not to know when they were shining with nothing but truth.

The question caught him off-guard and he couldn't hold back a laugh. "No, no just the opposite. I would happily be yours and no one else's. I'm happy to be ruined. Ruin me again, tali. And again and again." Another stolen kiss, pleased that Alec felt the same.

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"Oh I don't know, there are people who would cave if you ask-- I've seen it." and then turning red because he was one of those same people, he realized. And Illior's light, he would have it no other way then to be loved completely by this beautiful man, would give him the world. That warm glow settled deep within his chest, banked by all of the memories that they shared, banked by his regard.

Quiet, it had been prevalent as he had kept Seregil safe on their first ride to Rhiminee-- he wanted to continue to act as such to Seregil, hopefully the other would let him do that-- would permit him to keep him safe and yes, love him.

"Well I think you are already ruined, according to your words, so perhaps I will make you better." that was how logic worked and Alec was infalliably logical. The only thing that may be ruined was Seregil's reputation when it came down to it.

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"Oh?" He saw that blush, and wasn't that delightful. "Would you have me then?" Like he could read the thoughts in his head. He couldn't, of course, not entirely, but the bond that was starting to solidify between them would make it feel that way often enough.

He was still near to bursting with affection, so much of it coming out in soft, gentle touches now, a brush of his lips to lec's, a nuzzle at his jaw, a kiss to the point of his chin. Beautiful creature, half-faie and all wonderful.

Another laugh. "You've already done that, Alec. Don't you know? I'm a better man for knowing you, for everything you've taught me." And make no mistake, Seregil may have acted as teacher for Alec's nightrunner and Watcher education, but he'd learned so much from Alec in turn, from that earnest, honest heart and stubbornness that wouldn't just let Seregil get away with the worst of his nonsense.

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"I suppose I would." Alec said, tongue-in-cheek. "Take you as my lover."

And then because he had to clarify this further, "My only lover." he had decided that he did not want anyone else, and he'd made up his mind about it. When Alec decided on a course of action, he was pretty much set in stone about it, and that was his own stubborn heart. That stubborn heart that believed that there was infinite goodness in Seregil, no matter the secrets. This was a man who had the best intentions, and he believed that staunchly.

He pressed a kiss then to Seregil's forehead. "You get a lover and someone to keep you out of trouble, since Micum can't do it all the time." but Alec could, and would.. gladly.

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Such a stubborn heart, and one that was far too good for Seregil, but he was too selfish a man to even think about turning it away. Take what the Lightbearer gives you. He'd given that advice, tried to live by it himself. And Alec, his Alec was the greatest thing that he had ever been given in his life. His friendship and somehow his love.

"You'll be my only lover too, Alec. There can only be you, now." It was soft and serious, a vow that he fully intended on keeping until he drew his last breath, if he were allowed to, though he wouldn't ever hold Alec back if he decided his happiness was with someone else. He just desperately hoped it wouldn't. And because it was such a vulnerable, serious statement, the next thing out of his mouth was a more flippant, "The Street of Lights' economy will take a blow, of course, but they'll recover."

He shut his eyes at the sweet kiss to his forehead. "So you're here for my own good, mm? I suppose I can admit that I do need that, from time to time." All the time.

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"Of course the Street of Lights will take a blow." he said this tongue in cheek as he laid there underneath Seregil, attempting not to give a snort to that. But Alec's own perceptiveness had noted that Seregil was deflecting feelings; feelings that may have been a bit new and certainly taken with some getting used to.

"I am here for your own good, and you need it all the time. If by virtue that the kitchen is 100 percent more navigable now that I've moved in... and the living room too." Seregil's chaos had taken him by surprise, and he'd tried his best to settle a little bit of order into their lodgings on Wheel Street.

"I'm not sure if there is any help for your room but I am going to insist on a corner of order for myself so.. we can decide on that later." already moving into Seregil's bedroom.

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Damn Alec and his ability to see straight to Seregil's heart, truly. The boy would be his undoing, and actually, maybe that was okay. More than okay. The feelings were new and they were terrifying yes, but they were also warm and wonderful and that was the problem. How did he handle having something so... good? Right?

A laugh at the talk about his, erm, interior decorating style which was adhd magpie chic if one was being generous with their classification. It was true though. For as precise a person as Seregil was in many aspects of his life, the space in the Cockerel, where he didn't have to play the part of anyone but himself, was a cluttered collection disaster.

His expression softened into a very pleased smile as Alec just went and moved himself right into the bedroom. "You're welcome to more than a corner, tali. I'll keep my clutter out of your spaces. I take it this means we can move your pallet from the main room, mm? If you'd be willing to make my bed our bed?"

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There was a sudden shyness to Alec, and then he nodded with that upward tilt of his lips that was understated but made his eyes sparkle all that more beautiful and vibrant. "Yes, I think that I will make my home in your bed if you'll have it-- but I do not want to disrupt your.." how to put it, "Order, since I am sure that you know where everything is already.. so I'll only take a spot or two."

Alec knew that he did not need much in the scheme of things; he was still growing used to having everything taken care of including his own food and lodgings.

Though the other Nightrunner pressed a kiss to Seregil's chin. "You never know, you may talk in your sleep and then I find out more of your secrets." so who was the winner now, Seregil?

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Seregil's smile brightened because honestly, look at his Alec, that light in those sapphire eyes, the shyness at the edges of his expression. Ducking his chin, he nuzzled his lips against Alec's in a kiss that was all sweetness. "As you like. But I find I enjoy the ways you disrupt my life. They've much improved my... everything."

There was nothing in Seregil's life that wasn't warmer and sweeter because of Alec being in it -- even the fact that he now knew the feeling of his heart being ripped out of his body when he thought Alec was in danger of being hurt. But it was still worth it.

Laughter bubbled up at the threat about talking in his sleep and secrets. "Ah, so this is all a plan to ferret out information, mm? I'm so proud, tali. The student may have surpassed the master."