"Broken Shards"

[zauberdecke]

"In the dark
I need to taste the blood
Go on, draw another line
We can cross this time."
- Blindfold by Sleeping Wolf

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[ Essek Thelyss: Shadowhand to the Dynasty.

One who reached further then the Luxon would allow, who would do absolutely anything for knowledge. Oh no, the man did not care for power, not really. He wanted to cast himself into the portal of knowing, he wanted to surrender himself to books and learning without having to deal with the mundanities of socio-politics that all of the Kryn engaged in. It was tedious and it filled him with sickness even as he plastered on an urbane smile for all and sundry to see.

Within the Dynasty, it was customary to take pets of the Empire; they were brought in across the border of Asarius, across the mountains and into the Dynasty. There were Dynasty born pets on the other side, both lost to the ravages of the other's civilization, generally never to be seen again.

Essek had never really had an interest to begin with when it came to pets; at the market he carefully avoided the slave blocks where those not of the Dynasty were paraded around. However, it had come to this-- it had come to his trading of the Beacon, and in return he recieved a Volstrucker to serve him. And yet, for all of that, Essek Thelyss had not thought he would receive a broken Volstrucker.

In fair trade, he and recieved a dossier on the man in question and had perused it with only a small semblance of annoyance while Trent Ikithon had assured him that a man like him could be rebuilt, the honeyed words of a silken snake which Essek recognized.

After all did not a predator recognize another predator? So now he held in his household a man whom had to be guarded carefully, though Essek was not cruel despite how he imagined Dynasty pets were treated, the cage that he had placed this Volstrucker named Bren within, well it was comfortable-- he'd seen pictures of Vergossen so he supposed it must be far better than that place. But he had not precisely interacted with him-- most of his unseen servants were given the walking of him, the care and maintenance of him.

Perhaps because he did not precisely know what to do with him, or what use he had for something broken. Though he arguably did not know what manner of broken the Volstrucker was, but after a week-- he decided perhaps it was time to summon him and see for himself; acertain what sort of work was cut out for him.

If this man was worth putting back together again.

So it was one evening, he had the Empire man summoned to his chambers. ]

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[ausgebrannt]

Mm... is it morning?

[What day was it? Not that it mattered really in Bren's world. His days revolved around Essek entirely, and ran by his Master's whims and schedule. That said, he smiled sleepily at the question, reaching a hand up to trace fingertips along the smile on the drow's face -- because seeing him smile utterly melted Bren.]

I am well. Do you need something? Food? I could draw you a bath?

[Exhausted, yes, probably likely to tremble on his feet for a bit until he got his strength back, but intent on making certain that his Master was still taken care of. By him. As much as possible.]

[zauberdecke]

I am good right now, it is not my stamina that has suffered.

[ Essek said ruefully, he knew of course that his stamina was under-utilized in the fact that he did not have cause to expend it often, but Bren was human and prone to such things as exhaustion at a much shorter pace. There had been potions and salve but that was only a bridge and not wings. Resting his head on Bren's chest, he tilted his head upward-- feeling that face nuzzle against his. ]

I will have to return to the real world soon.

[ And not in this little bubble that they had created between each other, and there was a part of Essek that felt fairly bereft. ] But not for another day, I think.

[ausgebrannt]

Good... I am glad you will take some time to rest still. It will do you good, I think.

[Though Bren would miss it too, the world they had carved out for themselves and only themselves these past few days. Bren would, of course, accompany his Master wherever he happened to be going, if he were allowed, so he was grateful for the rest as well.

His fingertips draw gentle, soft circles against Essek's back.]

You seem to have come back to yourself a bit more. How are you feeling?

[zauberdecke]

Well, a bit exhausted.

[ There were muscles that had not been used in a very long time, if at all. He stretched his leg and managed to hook it against a knee as if to keep his pretty pet there with him. ] I am sorry that you were caught up in that whirlwind, I did not.. ah expect something like that to happen.

[ He had not expected to go into heat and take it out on Bren's human body.

And here was Essek talking as if he had done something that may have inconvenienced him, which of course spoke quite a bit for the fact that he felt like he tended to put out a lot of people-- it was something that he generally cloaked, but the remenants of the heat had turned him vulnerable. ]

[ausgebrannt]

[Oh. Quite deftly caught. Not that Bren intended on moving or putting any distance between himself and his master at all, not until he was told to, not until he was dismissed. So long as Essek would allow him, would want him he would stay close to him.

He couldn't help a confused furrow of his brow at that apology.]

I am not sorry. I am only glad that I was able to help you through it, despite my limitations.

[He owed that cleric a thank you note at a minimum honestly. And then quieter, like it was a secret he was shy about admitting.] It was exhausting, but not at all unpleasant.

[Best sex he'd ever had, clearly. ...perhaps the fifty best sex he'd ever had all one after another.]

[zauberdecke]

You were a very good boy. [ Essek said with a fond smile as he reached up to run his fingers through the spring curls of chest hair that liberally dotted that chest, it felt soothing and was such a bit of serotonin to him-- he leaned in to brush his lips against that cheek then and then lowly chuckled. ] I am glad, it was very pleasant for me too-- it was the best I have ever had.

[ He was shy admitting it as well, and in that moment he knew he'd fallen head over heels for this man who wanted to please him. He'd never had anyone completely do things for his own pleasure and honestly? It made him want to do the same. ]

I will give you anything you want.. for your amiability with this? Name it and it is yours. [ Bren could name even the smallest detail and he would make it happen. Free range of his quarters, a key to the library; absolutely anything within his power to give his Empire Pet and it was his. ]

[ausgebrannt]

[Bren beamed at the sound of that chuckle. Essek was always lovely, but his Master was devastatingly beautiful when he was at ease and relaxed. The former Volstrucker turned into that brush of lips against his cheek to mimic the gesture, soft and gentle and all brimming over with affection.]

Ja? Really? I am glad.

[Glad was an understatement. Bren was glowing with the praise really.

He found himself surprised by that offer. Anything he wanted? Oh he would love free rein of the library, but that was a secondary thing really. First and foremost, the thing that came to mind was,]

May I continue sharing your bed?

[Because with Essek's heat over, perhaps there would be no need for it, but he'd grown oh so used to sleeping curled close to his Master, and did not want to lose that.]

[zauberdecke]

[ For a moment, Essek felt doubtful at the request that was tendered to him and so he propped himself up on his elbow so that he could look down at his Pet, his brows furrowed and his lips pursed in thought as a part of some tag-team effort into concentration. He continued to stroke that chest while he considered it. ]

Is that all you want?

[ To him, it did not feel sufficient for the service that Bren had provided to him; safety in such a carnal storm, the willingness to be used and likewise the conduits of pleasure that had evaporated through the both of them. ] You could have anything! Of course, I will grant that but-- why?

[ He did not understand, of course he did not, that it was an intimacy thing-- it was a love thing. ]

[ausgebrannt]

[For the barest moment there was a flicker of something distinctly sad in Bren's eyes -- there and gone in the span of a blink -- as he took that questioning to be evidence for what he expected to be true, that the words of love they had traded to be artefacts of that haze and frenzy of heat and nothing more. But that was more than all right. Bren knew better than anyone else that he hardly deserved to be loved.

He would be more than happy with being useful to his Master. That would be enough. And his own feelings would slip back into the silence and secrecy of his own heart once more.

So he smiled, reaching up once more to brush fingertips along Essek's cheek.]

That is all I want, to be allowed close to you. I suppose you could say I've become spoiled.

[zauberdecke]

[ If only Essek knew the subtle bit of pain that he had caused Bren, but he did not-- because love did not come easy to him, because with the haze of heat dissipating he became more reserved and make to his normal behavior, but he could see that there was something that passed over Bren and instead he caught that wrist with his own fingertips and then he brushed his lips against the wrist lightly. ]

Then it is yours, you may stay in my bed with me.

[ Part of him wanted to make Bren happy, to see him smile again. ] I will continue to spoil you, you have been very good. [ Essek, who had been trained that he must be of 'service' to others, could not help but think of other such things as 'service-oriented', he merely thought that Bren was doing his duty to him as a good Pet.

Love was not something he knew how to comprehend. ]

[ausgebrannt]

[It was enough. Bren told himself. It was more than enough to be a good and faithful pet. It was more than he deserved. So his smile softened at the assurance that he could continue to share Essek's bed, though in the next moment his breath caught softly at the brush of those lips over his wrist.

Oh. That was. There went his heart fluttering. He really did love this complicated man.]

I'm glad. I want to always be good for you, Master.

[Whatever that entailed.]

[zauberdecke]

I should feed you now.

[ Essek chuckled softly and then he pushed himself up off of Bren so that he could summon the servants to bring some food, it was a flick of a wrist and a quick mental set of directives, then he looked over his shoulder at Bren, another shy smile on his face. ] Also, it is likely that my sexual reserves are a bit depleted for a few days time, that is ah.. alright, right?

[ It meant that they would have sex again, of course they would. But now was the time for recharging, and perhaps addressing the chafing and the rug burns and all other vestiges of frantic animalistic fucking that they had engaged in. ]

[ausgebrannt]

Of course, ja.

[The chafing could use some recovery. But Bren couldn't help a small little flush of pleasure at the realization that sex was not off the table entirely for the future. Because in between the exhaustion it had been exceptionally pleasant.

But rest for the moment was best.]

Whatever time you need is all right. Of course.

[He moved to sit up, and there it was, that little trembling in him the evidence that he was still feeling the effects of everything they had done, especially now that he had not taken more of the stamina potion.]

You will eat too, won't you?

[zauberdecke]

[ A smile made specifically for Bren, a slow soft smile as he rushed a few locks of hair off of Bren's face, out of his beautiful eyes. And then he leaned over and brushed a kiss to that forehead. ] I will eat, and you will eat too.

[ They could spend the day cuddling and reading, that seemed like a little sort of heaven, a soft domesticity that made him utterly weak of it. Together they could snuggle up and prepare for their life to go back into routine. ]

[ausgebrannt]

Good.

[Bren seemed placated by this information. Or maybe by that touch of those fingers in his hair. He would never grow tired of that touch, of being close to the other man. It was the reason that he had asked only to be allowed to stay in his Master's head.

A day spent cuddling would be good for both of them, to have a bit more stolen time -- and this time they would have the benefit of coherent thought to accompany them. His eyes shut at the press of those lips, only to open as Essek drew back so he could look up at him in pure and undisguised adoration.]

[zauberdecke]

[ Essek found that he enjoyed the feeling of those eyes upon him and so he would indulge him in that gaze, a soft caress before finally he moved to where the plates of food were laying out. He was a bit weak, but no where near the level that Bren was-- he heaped the plate with all of Bren's favorites and then came back to the bed so that they could eat and relax.

The afternoon was spent reading and cuddling, just as Bren had been promised. Soft affection and stolen kisses that felt so much like love, but it could've been a soothing aftercare procedure as well-- meant to assuage the rather rough fucking they had engaged in.

Tomorrow they would return to routine, but for today this still belonged to him.

Toward the evening, Adeen knocked on the door but Essek did not answer it-- merely he told Adeen to go away because he was resting. By this time, Essek wondered if Adeen had known what was going on or if he had been listening at the door and heard all of the filthy sounds that the two had made. It would've been unavoidable of course, the sound of two men enraptured within their primal instincts. ]

[ausgebrannt]

[Bren glared at the door when the knocking came, seconds away from lighting the man on the other side of the door on fire. But he refrained, when Essek took care of it and sent him away. For his part, Bren was certain that Adeen would have figured it out. They had not exactly been subtle in their reaction.

Or the sounds that came from the bedroom in that week of days.

Still he was pleased when his Master's horrid husband left and they were alone once more, and he could nestle back down into those arms and indulge in feeling so thoroughly spoiled it was truly obscene.

Eventually night came, and the next day loomed.]

[zauberdecke]

[ As the weeks drifted away, the heat became a think of the past-- a beautiful wonderful memory and both uncertain of when and if it would happen again. Did Essek discreetly tuck some things away for in case it happened again? He did not know if it was a one time thing, but he would not take that risk. Bren would have his walks with Essek, would go to the office with him when it was feasible and stay home when it was not.

There was also the functions to be attended, in which there was a marked hostility in the demeanor of Adeen when it came to Bren, those eyes staring him down as if he could kill him on looks alone.

The jealousy all but dripped off the other man, making the drow even less unbecoming then he actually was, but Essek paid little mind-- instead coddling his Pet, a possessive hand laid on Bren's thigh or a lean in to whisper a command into his ear. Such murmurings as to make the other man preen underneath it all-- and all the while Adeen seethed and inwardly plotted. ]

[ausgebrannt]

[Bren did not speak to Adeen again. The exchange they had at the door to the bedroom on that night was more than enough. He had said his peace and had little else to communicate to the man. He did watch him though, to make certain that there would be no petty retribution towards Essek. The former Volstrucker would not abide any harm coming to his master.

He soaked up the attention and affection though, ignoring the way Adeen's gaze tried to spear him through and instead fixing the usual adoring gazes at his Master. And preen he did, downright glowing at the attention, at the gentle touches. Take that, Adeen.

Perhaps he should have known better that danger was close.]

[zauberdecke]

[ After a week, Essek and Bren's sexual intimacies resumed; no where near as profuse but still rather vigorous all told. So there was a brief period of calm and bliss between them where they fell back into the routine that had existed in the days before Essek's heat. It was one such day a month later where Bren had been left at home while Essek attended matters at the Lucid Bastion.

The Shadowhand had wanted to stay home because he'd woken up unexpectedly tired, but he knew that after his week long vacation there had been no way he could've called out again.

Though part of it was blamed on the fact that the night before, himself and Adeen had a rather large argument about Essek's refusal to share his bed; that had not gone well but Essek had held his own before finally heading back to his room to be soothed by his pet. Surely he was tired because of that, and no other reason.

So that was when Bren was left alone for the afternoon; though promptly at one o'clock there would be a repast sent up, much like the Unseen Servants always brought him, a wonderfully decadent meat pie stuffed with vegetables and over it spread a pastry crust, the sort of food that was comfortable and would remind him of the home that he'd described to Essek in great detail. ]

[ausgebrannt]

[Bren had noticed the fact that his Master seemed tired when he'd left, but he too had assumed it was probably the stress of that confrontation the night before. He'd been happy to welcome Essek back into his arms and to try to soothe away the encounter with the sort of casual, gentle touches that had been come to be commonplace between them.

He'd only pouted briefly when Essek left, wishing that of all days he could accompany his Master. But he knew the Shadowhand's business was important, so he was a good and dutiful pet who settled in to pass a quiet day until the other man returned to him.

When lunch arrived, he of course ate -- both because it was indeed the sort of familiar comfort food that reminded him of a home so far away and long ago and because he did not want to be scolded for disobedience. It was a normal enough day.

Until it wasn't.

Not long after he'd eaten, after the unseen servants had cleared away the dishes, Bren started feeling wrong.

Cold.

It began slowly, a creeping sort of nausea and malaise that felt like it was draining the warmth straight out of him. By the time Essek made it home, Bren was in a very bad state, curled up and wrapped in a blanket and shivering, deathly pale, lips nearly blue.]

[zauberdecke]

[ Essek came home a little later than normal, as the meeting with the Bright Queen had run a little bit late. The door opened and then he was throwing off his cloak for the Unseen Servants to take, when he saw that Bren was curled up on the bed with blankets. He wandered over to drop a kiss on the top of the forehead when he noticed the shivering, and then he pressed his hand to Bren's forehead.

Cold.

Clammy.

He sat down on the edge of the bed and said quietly, surveying the other man with a eye that was practiced and careful. ] You do not.. are you sick? [ Confusion of course, he did not know how humans experienced sickness, he knew that it was rare for drow to get sick. He attempted to brush some locks of hair off from Bren's forehead in the process. ]

[ausgebrannt]

[Bren startled at the touch. Blue eyes snapped open, taking a long moment to focus. He was shaking, and as he turned his head to look up at him. His lips were blue, and he looked more like a man being frozen to death actively than ill. When he exhaled, his breath was visible in the room. Whatever was happening, it had the aura of something undeniably arcane about it.

The poison that Adeen had chosen was a slow one, chosen perhaps for that element of suffering, to make sure that the end was not a peaceful or easy one. Or a quick one.

It took Bren a moment to realize he'd been asked a question. He shook his head slightly.]

I do not know...

[zauberdecke]

[ There was something decidedly wrong and the moment that Bren looked up with unfocused eyes to stare at him, Essek knew-- could see it in the blue-cold lips and the skin that was so pale that it retained no warmth. His heart went as cold as his Pet looked and then he started.

His hand went reflexively to his stomach, a subconscious gesture. ] You need a healer, I will have one sent for immediately.

[ The drow did not want to leave Bren though so he crawled underneath the covers, and lamented the fact that body was not a furnace. ] Hold on to me, Bren-- maybe I can make you warmer love.

[ He called out a command in Undercommon which was promptly followed. ] When did you start feeling like this? [ Essek wanted to determine what it was because he was a problem solver. ]

[ausgebrannt]

[A healer was probably a good idea. Essek was here now. It was comfort, just the presence of his Master. It washed over him, softer than the cold, and he curled into Essek. His Master calling him by his name caught his attention too, the note of worry in the drow's voice.

He didn't want to worry him.

But something was wrong, and he knew it. He was not a stupid man, and he could feel himself slipping away.]

This... this afternoon. [A frown, and a soft whimper he tried to stifle back.] After lunch.