: Hanahaki - Guess I'll Just Die :

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It was truth that Alec was not as restless as Seregil was; their little place on Half Moon Street was well lived in, though the treads in the carpet were not from Alec, not even remotely. Alec could be content to just sit in a wing chair and read, in dreaming-- in moving through books and ideas all of the ways that the world had not opened up for him before his first meeting with Seregil.

Though he did miss Seregil's presence, the chaos in the other side of the room; in all of his soliloquys and ramblings, his plotting and scheming.

The rain pattered outside, and Ruetha had found a good thing in his calmness. Her goal of comfort was to spend days in Alec's lap, and then cuddle in with Seregil at night and he supposed, as he scritched just behind her ears, that it must be a very sweet deal indeed. Thankfully she allowed him just enough time to turn the page before he returned back to his ministrations.

A lock of blonde hair fell in his eyes, those blue eyes that managed to convey so many emotions-- both wonder as well as stubbornness; but this time calm. Occasionally he would have to let out a cough which he covered with his hand-- not precisely noticing the petal that disguised itself within his palm before it fell casually and wedged within the couch cushions where one would find a veritable sea of them hidden underneath.

He thought about getting up to go search Seregil out, though he thought perhaps the other man did not want to be disturbed. Tried not to think about if Seregil was at the Avenue of Lights, perhaps in the arms of his green eyed boy. No, best not to think about that, he'd only be setting himself up for a long train of thought that he was not prepared to board.

So he sat there, whiling away the moments.

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And thank Illior for that. Seregil had not known how much he needed Alec before the other man had come into his life, but oh he did need someone who could and did and continued to call him out on his not-infrequent bullshit. Oh yes, he'd still fuss and bristle about it at times because he was himself, but not so deep down he realized it was good for him. He was a better man for Alec's presence in his life.

Seregil breathed a laugh to those lips and all their damned audacity. "Mm... I'm ever the architect of my own undoing," he conceded before letting himself melt into the kiss, lips parting to welcome, to encourage Alec to explore, to take whatever it was he wished because Seregil was not only willing, but horribly eager to give it.

He shifted closer, like he fully intended on not allowing a single sliver of space to exist between their bodies if he could help it. His own arousal had not diminished even with Alec quite expertly putting him in his place, and he slipped an arm around the other man to press against his back, insistent and only mildly (okay, a little more than mildly) possessive.

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Oh, Alec did like that.

Also because of the pleasure he had experienced, he was rather pleased by the sign of Seregil's own arousal, reaching between them with his unoccupied hand so that he could stroke Seregil gently as they kissed, tongue sliding underneath tongue while he allowed sensuality to pass between them.

There was no denying the way that Alec had become more pliant in Seregil's arms, certainly receptive if the way that Alec's hips thrust upward in response to Seregil's hand possessive drawing against his back.

He was going to blush for even suggesting this but he'd try gallantly. "I want you..." and then quietly. "Inside me"

Alec was clearly going for throwing himself into things as he was wont to do-- right to the point, his own reasoning was that he wanted to try all aspects to evaluate if he found them pleasurable. For Seregil's sake just as much as his own; he rather thought he would enjoy being the penetrator all the time but it was important for him to KNOW if he would enjoy being on the recieving end.

Which he did not know yet.

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And there went his Alec as per usual, throwing himself headlong into everything he did. The boy did not have any option between think about it from every angle possible and all or nothing. He'd never seen Alec approach anything by halves, so really, why should he be surprised this was any different? Yet here was Seregil, who was distracted and breathless from that delightfully sensual and consuming kiss, trying to wrap his mind around what his lover had just said to him.

Oh. That. Well, yes. He had rather thought it would be best to ease Alec into things, start with what would be analogous to the little experience he'd had with women, but yeah nope, apparently full speed ahead. His own face was flushed as he drew back to look at him. "You're sure, tali?"

Because Illior save him, he very much wanted that. Then again, he wanted everything with Alec. Seregil himself was a fan of being on both ends of the act, his own sexuality coming down to the fact that he enjoyed giving pleasure, enjoyed receiving pleasure, liked pretty people of any or all genders -- and was discovering just now that having a deep bond of love made everything so much better, so much more. Being with Alec made it so much more.

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It was a translocation spell of the mind that was periodically cast, that allowed him to go from 0 to Instant Decision in as little time as possible and with absolutely no middle ground. He had a feeling that Seregil had been ready to ease him things, but Alec balked profusely at being at a disadvantage for very long. This was a disadvantage in his education, and now Seregil looked at him with a bit of incredulity in those storm cloud eyes.

"I've never been more sure in my life, Tali." he assured Seregil as he stroked his fingers through hair, allowing the touch and closeness to infuse the area around them. "You'll know if I don't like something." Alec assured Seregil, hoped that Seregil trusted him to know his own mind.

"And I also trust you to understand that if I don't like something, it is not a personal failing on your part." that was spoken with a warning, because even right here and now while they were both love-drunk, Alec meant business.

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There were several incredibly unfair things about this moment. First and foremost, the way that Alec was running his fingers through Seregil's hair was very distracting and wonderful and it made him want to do whatever Alec asked of him, and there would be no peace for Seregil if Alec realized that. Secondly, he clearly knew Seregil too well, calling him out so accurately. Third, he did all that looking like every boyhood fantasy Seregil had ever had about desire and love and forever.

He had no defense to any of it, at all, and he sighed softly, nuzzling his nose along Alec's. "You're a monster, I hope you know." His own personal precious monster.

With another stolen kiss, shorter and gentler but with no less passion laced through it. "But I want to be inside you very much, to make you mine this way..." And any other way he could think of. With that he shifted just enough to reach to fumble around on the cluttered chaos that was his bedside table, quite expertly and deftly snagging up a sweetly perfumed oil.

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A few things managed to yeet themselves off of the counter, little drops of chaos that endeared Seregil to him in such a manner that he would never have changed a single bit about the other man, because he was perfect the way he was; his eyes sparkled with softness in those blue eyes and he tucked a lock of hair back behind Seregil's ear.

"And I too.." he was finding that he was very aroused by the thought of closeness with Seregil and he didn't quite care how he got it-- was this love? Wanting to be as intimately close as possible. He smoothed his hand then against that stomach, upward upward until his talented fingers, the same that nocked a bow was now slowly massaging that shoulder.

"If I am a monster, then you are a.. well..." he found himself colouring ever so slightly, yeah.. his mind had gone there but then it stopped before it had quite committed too it.

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Seregil found himself already feeling a blossoming addiction for all these little touches, the brushing back of his hair, the way those fingers -- with the faint but unmistakable calluses from bowstring and arrow -- began that kneading at his shoulder. They'd already been fairly affectionate and free with small touches, Seregil having a fondness for ruffling at Alec's hair or slinging an arm around his shoulders. But this had a different flavor to it, all the more alluring.

When Alec started, and then abruptly stopped, in the middle of making a decidedly bawdy joke, Seregil broke into laughter, delight clear in the sound and in gray eyes as he looked down at the blond. "I suppose I am at that, yes. Or will be, shortly."

All aboard the monster fucker express?

Seregil's shoulders were still shaking in now quieted laughter. "You are precious, tali. Beyond any words I have to express it properly." That wouldn't stop him from trying though.

He pressed a kiss to those lips, then his forehead and finally the tip of his nose before sitting back on his heels and settling himself between Alec's legs, urging thighs to part for him.

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There was a huff from Alec, completely Alec in nature, though that was also tinged by the soft affection present in his cerulean gaze, the piece of himself that was inherent in the other. And wasn't Seregil an intrinsic part of him? They were twined by experiences and that was incredibly poignant to him. Alec spread his thighs and then allowed his palms to spread and touch along Seregil as if he was thirsty for absolutely anything.

"You are ridiculous.." however that was said affectionately and with such love in his voice.

Truth be told, he enjoyed touch-- was not sure of public displays of affection but he had a feeling he could grow slowly used to it even given the chance. "Maybe less teasing more action, Tali..."

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"I am. And it's part of my considerable charm," Seregil informed him, as he worked on opening up the bottle of oil that he'd snagged, looking down at Alec, entirely unapologetic in his high spirits right now. Don't mind him, he was apparently in peacock mode, preening prettily.

"Which, I admit I already knew was quite substantial, but I've surpassed even my own highest expectations this time, having charmed the most beautiful creature I've ever encountered into my bed. Even more impressive is that it seems I've worked my way into his heart too."

He made a bit of a show of drizzling the oil on his hand, working it in a slick sheen over his fingers, seeing if he couldn't warm it at least a little. A flicker of a grin tugged its way over his lips as Alec scolded him for teasing which, really, how could he have resisted?

"He's exquisite, you see. Outshining any jewel I've seen in any noble's treasury. His eyes alone put any sapphire that could ever be mined to shame with envy. I find myself wanting to write poetry across his skin with my lips. The sweetest music I have ever heard is when he calls me tali." He mused all this quite thoughtfully as he ran his unslick hand down Allec's thigh, urging those hips back just a bit.

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There was yet another snort from Alec though this time coloured by the comfort he felt in this moment; he'd though he would feel self conscious but the trailings of the talimenos bond flowed through him though he had no real word for it. Nakedness was natural in this moment and while he would never undress in public (or very reluctantly) his lover of silver eyes and silver tongue set him as such ease that it barely registered that the air caressed his skin.

Maybe a little flush as Seregil gazed at his body, his entrance and yes, his balls.

"You still remain ridiculous, Tali.. I stand by my words." And then he arched his hips upward while he groused good naturedly. "Also very dramatic, it makes me feel like we are on a stage and with people watching." He pulled the pillow to himself and then bit at it, smiling around it at the thought of being called beautiful.

"You very nice to look at yourself."

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"I've a poet's heart, I'm afraid. You will, alas, find yourself the subject of its musings over and over again. No help for it." So yes, he was ridiculous, and he loved the way Alec responded to it, half snorts of laughter and rolls of his eyes and half with that faint little smile and flush that he could see behind that pillow.

It surged into his heart then, the rush of just how right this felt, how much he loved him, how Alec felt like the one he'd been waiting for without realizing he'd been waiting for all his life. Seregil did have the word for it, and he expected he ought to introduce it to Alec, and hope that the intensity and depth of such a connection didn't rattle him at all.

"It's not unheard of, this sort of performance on stage for an audience. No doubt we'd draw quite a crowd, mm? But I don't think I'm eager to share the sight of you like this with anyone."

A light caress up along the inside of his thigh, fingers pressing into lean muscles there even as his fingertips teased down along the skin between his balls and his entrance, slowly working his way down to massage a slick finger against that tight hole.

"I'm glad you think so, tali," he murmured quietly, expression softening.

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"I suppose for you, I will endure." he said with a tease of his own, hiding his smile behind his hand and then as Seregil pressed his fingertip against hole to massage, he let out a low almost indolent moan while he arched his hips upward even more firmly, though he decided to use Seregil's shoulder as an ankle rest for obvious reasons that it seemed the most expedient.

After all in a position like this, it was very hard to figure out what to do with legs, and he had the same slender limbs than Seregil, but also his shoulders were perhaps a bit more broad?

"I hope to never attend such a performance, if I'm being honest." he said this in between breathless gasps, why did it feel so good to have his own hole being toyed with, this was not something that would've occurred to him, but then honestly Seregil could do anything and he would be an utter whore for it-- what an embarrassing thought that he had only recently toying with.

"I do.. you are, it's impossible to not want to look at you.. for me." and then his free hand moved to slid up chest. "it's a wonder I get to touch you too."

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Another laugh, this one a low, soft chuckle. "Remind me, sometime, to tell you how they celebrate the solstice, in Aurenen."

But right now he was much more interested in the way that Alec moaned for him in utter perfection to each touch. It continued to ease those lingering worries that he'd somehow tricked Alec into believing he should want this rather than actually wanting it. The way his beloved reacted so eagerly and intensely though, all the evidence that Alec enjoyed his touch, wanted it.

And there was no doubt that Seregil wanted Alec's touch either, the way his skin sang in the wake of those fingers, the way his breath caught and he subtly leaned into it. "I want you to touch me, more than I have ever wanted anyone's touch before." It might have sounded like sweet nothings and pillow talk, but there was something of an awed earnestness to it. Talimenios. It whispered through him in every drop of blood in his veins.

That leg settling over his shoulder also entirely sublime. Like this, there was nothing stopping Seregil from leaning in and kissing at the inside of his calf. "Relax for me, tali... we will take this as slowly as you need." And with that he pressed a finger slowly inside that tight clench.

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He would be curious even though he had a feeling that since Seregil was bringing it up, it involved something borderline if not outright scandalous; and that this would be so much teasing to be had for Seregil-- he rather was giving the other man fodder for it, but he could not bring himself to complain since he was being so expertly prepared.

He let the subject drop, it'd come up later-- just like his dick which was currently ramrod straight and laying heavy against his stomach, perhaps there was a bit of precome leaking from it as well-- proof that he did have the trajectionary period of his brethren.

He skirted his fingertips back, looking into Seregil's eyes before he wrapped his fingers around that slender long clock and started to stroke it, spreading slickness of a more man-made sort all over it, his eyes never broke from Seregil's-- he too felt the pull of attraction, a strong chord that linked them together. He may have not known the word, but he felt it.

His own ministrations to cock made it so that he was relaxed enough to accept that finger, it slipped inside with nary a difficulty, and maybe that was because Alec did best when he had something to distract him, like a task. A rough little groan as he felt it, the press of it against his walls and then he bucked his hips eagerly against it.

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Seregil watched as Alec took himself in hand, a soft groan leaving him at the sight of it. The blond was a study in temptation, alluring and beautiful and tailor-made to drive every piece of Seregil utterly mad with need. He let his finger sink inside fully, twisting and slowly beginning what probably ought to be a familiar motion of fucking the digit in and out, rubbing and massaging against those inner walls to urge Alec's body to relax and yield to him.

"There you are. Good boy..." he purred, though his own voice sounded strained with desire. Oh he wanted to be inside him, to feel their bodies joined and moving together as one. He wanted to make love to him. For the first time. And then again and again and again.

After a few deliberate moments, he nudged a second finger inside as well, watching Alec's face. "Still all right?"

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"Yeah, it is." Alec murmured breathlessly, the ministrations working him open and the last thing he thought of doing was clenching, he was pliant and willing, and with his calves resting against shoulders, he was absolutely ready for the other man to fuck him.

He rather thought he would like it, and he was beginning to understand that maybe he enjoyed new experiences?

"Its perfect, Tali.. I, the need is building, I can feel it." It hadn't been anything this close both times before and maybe that it was Seregil and he was comfortable. Wanted Seregil to do this, his curiousity absolute in this moment.

"I think I'm ah.. looking forward to you being inside me." There was that admittance, for him. And fuck if that good boy didn't make his prick twitch at the utterance

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His sweet, honest Alec. Seregil could read the openness on that familiar, beautiful face, knew that Alec was not dressing his words up or giving him the answers he wanted to hear. Though he very much hoped that it was that way. ...he also was entirely aware of how Alec had reacted to those words, and he'd guessed he might. How often had he watched the other's face light up in those early days when he'd been praised for his quick learning and talents in all their various lessons? Impossible not to notice.

"I am looking forward to it too... to being inside you. To making love to you." Sentimental yes, but Seregil was more sentimental than he would ever outright admit to in words.

And since Alec liked it, that seemed the perfect reason to demonstrate that this could and would be even better. A slow, deeper twist of his fingers, caressing and massaging along the tight walls of that passage, deliberately seeking that spot inside him that he'd learned very well would send a bolt of pleasure through him.

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Now that came as a surprise, so much that Alec's eyes widened before they closed, his teeth burying into his lower lip for a vital second as his prostate was touched and then his walls did clench, his breath managed to huff out a question despite himself, because he did want to know everything.

"What.. was that?!" He had not felt anything like it, it was like a jolt of concentrated pleasure, and it was certainly not something that men experienced with women unless that woman was a bit more take charge and the man comfortable with their masculinity.

"Does it.. aways feel like this, would this feel similar if our positons were reversed?" He wanted to know, seregil-- he was full of a thirst for understanding even as he started to grind his hips to get another roll of that touch.

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Seregil smiled the smile of a cat who'd gotten the cream as Alec's hole tightened around his fingers, as Seregil watched the new pleasure wash over his lover's face. And then there went his Alec with a million questions. Was it wrong to be only further endeared because Alec was very much Alec even here -- even while he was half breathless with desire, even as Seregil was working him open so that he could fuck -- wanting to understand everything.

"That was what I was looking for, tali. And yes it always feels this way. It would be the same for me, if I were in your place and you were in mine. I could make you come for me just like this, you know..." By way of proof and demonstration, he continued the deliberate massage of fingers against that nub of flesh.

And there was something appealing about the idea of slowly taking Alec apart while he watched, in every way that he could think of, until his lover understood each and every way that he could be pleasured and made to rise to heights and tumble in ecstasy from them. Just now though, Seregil could feel his own arousal as an aching reminder, a throb at the thought of being inside him. "But I want so much to be inside you, to find our release together."

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With the continued milking of his prostate, his hand fell away from his arousal. And that was mainly because he did not think that continuing was sustainable, especially with the somewhat evil smile from Seregil and the way that he'd seen absolute stars during the moments when he closed his eyes, a universe that Seregil was coaxing with his fingertip.

"Illior's Light..." because yes, he was seeing light about now.

He also wanted to make Seregil feel like this, feel the sweetness of such a thing; it was an overwhelming pleasure bourne from trust and mutual desire; all ideas that he would not like it fled (though arguably, Alec did manage to keep an open mind about most thing, easier with his continued association with Seregil) and he wanted more.

"I would like that.." he said this with such brazen honesty, with each moment the sure feeling of home growing. "Please Seregil." he whispered breathlessly and half drunk in love with the man above him, his fingers finding Seregil's hair to comb through them. "Show me...."

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Seregil could not have dreamed of saying no to that sweet, breathless plea, especially not when what Alec was asking for was what Seregil's own being was clamoring for as well. He drew his fingers free from that tight passage, sparing a moment for his own arousal, to stroke the slick of the oil down himself.

He slipped Alec's leg from where his ankle had taken rest on his shoulder, coaxing it instead to wrap about his hip as he settled closer. After all, while he did intend on bending Alec in half and fucking him until they both saw the face of the divine, he didn't want to have to include any contortionist acrobatics in order to kiss him while he did so. "All right, my beautiful one, I'll show you."

Pressing fingers into the back of one strong, lean thigh, he urged Alec's hips back enough that he could settle close, his prick a teasing pressure, not quite breaching that entrance yet. His gaze sought out Alec's, a murmur of his name on his lips as he rocked his hips forward to begin sinking inside that eager, tight heat.

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His thighs wrapped completely around that waist with the urging and guiding, body to body and twined with such sweet intent, all of his trepidation had disappeared and he was engaging completely as the talimenos bond beckoned him like a siren's song. For a moment his eyes went dark as he watched Seregil work oil into his shaft-- slender but long, he could appreciate art and the other man's had a subtle curve like a bow and he knew that he'd be able to handle it.

Words were never his strong suit, but then actions were and the expression was full of aching want and then Seregil pressed, started to press in and he wrapped his arm around that shoulder.

The pressure was far more noticible than any pain, the concept of being filled and the thought of if Seregil would not exactly fit. But still he kept his eyes locked on his lover's while he kept himself pliant for Seregil's shaft.

"Tali..." he said, brushing their mouths together as he said that-- letting the other man taste the endearment upon lips. In a moment like this he could not imagine a life without Seregil, without being like this as both friend and lover.

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Seregil would remember this for the rest of his (possibly if he wasn't his stupid self one too many times) many long years, would remember how Alec looked, flushed and breathless, those blue eyes that put the sky on a clear summer evening to shame, those arms and legs around him, the way it felt as he slowly sank inch by inch inside that tight, perfect body.

He was trembling, he realized, at the effort to keep himself measured and paced, at the way emotion threatened to sweep him under like a rogue wave on the ocean as he tasted that endearment on his lover's lips. "Tali..." he murmured back, punctuated it with another soft brush of those lips to Alec's. "I love you."

Loved him. Would always love him, always need him, always ache for him in heart and body and soul. Seregil slipped one arm beneath Alec, bracing his weight on his elbow up but also pressing his hand between his shoulder blades, holding tightly to him. His other hand had dropped to grip at the blond's thigh as he slowly sank inside him, inch by inch. Another gentle rock forward, and he found his hips flush to Alec's (offensively) perfect ass, fully hilted inside him.

He took the moment to catch his breath, to let his gaze search his lovers to make sure that Alec was all right, that he wasn't too much or too fast.

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It was nice having time to get used to Seregil's prick inside of him, because to be honest as the slow and steady suited him just fine-- though with the way that the pressure was converting naturally to pleasure? Well he was completely enchanted by it in the best possible way, and knew that he'd want to do this with Seregil again.

But it was the look that did it, the uttered endearments.

Alec was not a romantic person by any stretch, but he could feel it in this moment binding around the two of the,, the press of fingers against his back and the whispered breath of Tali which felt like it meant something far more than what he'd been led to believe it meant. "I love you too." he murmured this, and then allowed his hands to move through Seregil's hair and then he was clutching to those strands of hair while he kissed the other man breathless.

And of he was precocious enough that he thrust his hips back up against Seregil, in a shallow deep movement. Alec who did nothing in halves, who once he committed to something was a force of cardinal nature.

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Seregil smiled as those words were spoken back to him, letting the feeling roll through him. Alec loved him, in the same way that Seregil loved him. It was warmth and belonging and relief like he could finally breathe -- which, given the sudden lack of flowers blossoming in his lungs, he could, but it was more than that.

Then he Alec was once again proving what an alarmingly fast learner he was, because between the way those fingers gripped into his hair and the way Alec kissed him like he had been starving for him, Seregil felt the world spinning. But he kissed him back with equal fervor.

Fingers gripped tighter at the other man's hip as he felt that roll against him, taking it as Alec asking him to move. So he did, a roll of his own hips, drawing his hips back before thrusting forward, slow, long deliberate thrusts that had him plunging deep inside him over and over again.